5.2 minutes in Plan B

Yep, that is how long christmas lasted tonight. No ones fault just life. Lisa and Sharon came up with the kids. Reece had to get a blood test this a.m. then they came up here for more blood work. She will have to get her spleen taken out - soon. I have to do some reasearch on that so I know what is going on. She has this rare ( very rare) condition that her body dosn’t make enough white blood cells to keep her going and her red blood cells don’t stay alive long - they die and don’t know how to rejuvinate either. When she was in kindergarden they would lay down and take naps and she wouldn’t wake up. She has had numerous blood transfusions and with all that she also has asthma and eczema reallly bad and so does Ava. Reecie did not feel good. She was yellow with yellow eyes. Scared me but I didn’t say anything. We exchanged gifts and opened them and left. Wella. I gave a bunch of stuff away. Regifts everywhere. I gave Lisa a pair of Mom’s pajamas that she use to wear.
I miss Mom and Dad. I miss our holidays even if they were fucked up to the max sometimes. The stories are endless. One day I will share them one at a time.
Hard to belive tomorrow is christmas eve. The holidays I try not too let it way in on me but it does. It’s like a low hum only I can hear and it sits on the ends of my hairs where it is annoying like a tag of a shirt rubbing on my kneck only this is invisiable. Too much stress goes into it.
I did buy a storage cabinet at the thrift store today. It fits perfect in my new kitchen. Right underneath the cabinet. Yea me. I am not going to be up long. For whatever reason I am tired and all I did today was Downtown Dean. I gave him two twin sheets, a tin of cookies and a giant roll of t.p and a giant roll of paper towles. He loved it. He is so easy to please.