Dear God,
Thank You so, so much for helping me pass my exam today. Only one more to go. I missed two questions, and I was allowed to miss up to six. The two I missed were simple — I just didn’t read carefully enough. From now on, I will read every question three times before answering. Slow, steady, disciplined.
Tomorrow is my first day of studying hard. All of my prior exams will be compiled into the final, so I will treat tomorrow with focus and intention.
My body has been under stress — my left eye twitching, my lower back and neck aching, my hair shedding more than usual. But I will not be ruled by discomfort. Tonight I completed all of my homework, so tomorrow is purely for studying. I may fast in the morning and just drink water, depending on how I feel. I will focus on my index cards and organize all my screenshots so everything I need is in one place.
In the morning, I will dedicate 30 solid minutes to studying. In the van to class, I’ll review my flashcards while listening to music. I will study consistently and calmly throughout the day.
On Thursday, I plan to study with most of my colleagues. Michelle offered to let me see her index cards, so I’ll ask if I can stop by around 7:30–8:00 p.m. to take photos. Then I’ll return to my room and study from 9:30–11:30 p.m. But tonight — just tonight — I will allow my mind to rest.
Today I found out that if I pass my comprehensive exam, I’ll be going to Bulgaria. The hotel is the Millennium Grand Palace, and it truly lives up to its name — absolutely beautiful. I imagine booking a spa treatment, sleeping deeply, exploring in the morning, having breakfast with a colleague, walking through the city, then retreating back to the hotel to rest and reset.
I am going to work so hard so I can go to Bulgaria. I was told the aircraft might be a 640. I know it’s not the VIP plane, and we’ll be flying troops — and that is an honor. I want this opportunity so badly. We only live once, and I want to experience the world. I want to grow. I want to travel so confidently that one day a world tour feels effortless.
I love You so much. Please heal my body. Calm my nervous system. Let me sleep deeply from midnight to 8 a.m. — a full eight hours that feels like nine.
In Your holy name, amen.
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