Hi folk.
This has been a complex two weeks. The paralysis demon has overwhelmed me with everything I need to do and to just to survive. I have had some good support with the gofundme (Which is still going on, i still need help i'm looking at at least 4k of bills plus some extra for sanity and bills while I get everything under control)
My friends have helped me greatly in this time offline, just to help to keep me distracted with board games, i'm probably gonna ask to be kidnapped this weekend, but half the time i feel like a bother with me not having a car or anything like that (more on that in a second)
I am slowly fighting this paralysis demon, but the problem is like i said i'm overwhelmed i have so much to do and it feels like i'm just whittling away at it. I cleaned out the kitchen last week and i'm starting on her bedroom today, throwing a bunch of things to be donated and a bunch of old food that was left in there and thats not gonna be fun to take down to the basement.
So a big issue i'm gonna have is globviously employment. I have no car, and i'd kill people if i work retail (i might have to bite the bullet on that) so I am going to have to find a remote job until I get things under control. And thats gonna be nuts. (Hence the reason for the 10k on the GFM cause I need time)
While I clean my moms room out I am probably going to set up a studio for recording and other things because I am thinking of doing something with a youtube channel, gaming or sports related, and the REALLY left field thing i'm thinking of is going to find out how to get into voice acting. I know it's rough but it would be fun I think. I dont know where to start though, i'm gonna tag a couple of voice actors I think to see if they can help with some free resources.
A couple other personal things is.. I have very few pictures of my mom. She was anti picture and she didn't like pictures taken. So I have like 3 or so. Plus the step jerk when he was alive BURNED all pictures in some form of psychological abuse thing. My birthday is going to be rough this year. She always got me something for my birthday, and it's gonna be hard emotionally. Its gonna sound odd but something if someone wants to be nice is I want a tattoo of something packers, mass effect or board game related.. OR.. maybe a nose piercing IDK. Something. I always said to myself when she passed I was gonna do a few things different.. and something ELSE i'm gonna get when i have spare money or amazon credit (I have to get a new deadbolt and thats the next thing i'm gonna get) is a freaking pride flag, I dont know if im gonna fly it outside or just hang it up here somewhere. Maybe in my new studio. I dunno yet.
Finally board and video game stuff. they have kept me sane. Both HSR and ZZZ have had new patches (and for HSR a whole new world and its been great) ZZZ has had the angels of delusion which is basically an idol band, they are cute, Sunna is anxious AF. HSR also has a new path called "Elation" which is SO FREAKING ABSURD AND SILLY ITS GREAT. (Basically the aeon of elation Aha helps your party out with a follow up attack and the damage is based off a few things.. but the animation and sounds are great:
This gremlin is Sparxie (The second character, the first was Yao Guang whom I got and she's cool but nothing like sparxie)
(They changed some of the sounds for the follow up attack but NGL even in my darkest days I laughed at loud at that follow up animation)
I also been playing a game called Goridan Quest.. holy carp. Even on easy mode it gets frustrating, it's a great concept, a deckbulding adventure game but some fights are just frustrating. i also got a crowdfunded game this year called Nippon. Which was a game I had to make a choice between that or another game, i'm glad I did. The other game was a weird campaign like game and I dont want to play a campaign board game.
Anyways thats all. i'm trying my best. I dont know if it's the best but i'm trying.
Now for some pictures;
Here is Nippon. Its got some shiny metal coins which i dont remember getting, and while i'm not the biggest metal coins fan they do make clink clink.
I dont think these were any good lol.
This was her room. It's getting cleaned out, and this is gonna be some form of studio like i said. Lots of old cans of food to get rid of.
End this on Sparxie doing whatever she's doing here, this is a good ending.
My Go Fund me is on the previous page, I feel like a leech and my brain tells me i'm worthless (this will always be me no matter what) Donate, share whatever. I'm trying.
Have a good one.
Keelah Se'lai.
Me.
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