Dear God,
“I’m so proud of you.”
Those were the last words I heard before going to bed last night. My friend Amara said that to me just before we hung up on our phone call. She has shown me bits and pieces of herself that sometimes make me cautious about her intentions, but I still choose to love her.
This morning I called her to ask for her cousin’s number — the one who makes beats. For some reason, I feel like he’s trying to get in touch with me just as much as I’m trying to get in touch with him, yet she won’t allow it. She didn’t give me his number and said she wants all of us to be on a call together. It felt strange and uneasy. There’s something about the situation that feels off, and I can’t quite put my finger on it. I’ve asked her several times to send him my music, but she still hasn’t. Something doesn’t feel right. Please guide me in this situation and sharpen my discernment.
Amara also told me that Jillian & Allie called me a “ditz” and said I’m in “la la land.” But yesterday, I proved otherwise — I earned an A on another exam. That means I only have two more to go.
Thank You for helping me pass my drill yesterday. I pray I make it to the end and become a flight attendant. Please forgive me for gossiping. Sometimes I agree with others when they vent about someone else, and I know I need to be more of a leader and not fall into that trap. I remain deeply grateful for everything You are doing in my life.
Right now, I’m about to take a much-needed nap. I’m still exhausted. It’s Saturday, so my plan is to organize my flashcards for my first aid exam on Tuesday, do laundry, pack up the things I no longer need for school, wash and dry my hair, and study for the comprehensive exam that scheduled on Friday morning. I pray that when I wake up from my nap, I’ll feel refreshed and ready to accomplish all of it. Hopefully I’ll be back in bed no later than 11 p.m., and when I wake up, I’ll focus solely on studying for both exams.
I will give this my all. And on Sunday, I hope to be in bed by 10 p.m., wake up early, and review my notes again while eating cereal. I might even treat myself to breakfast — and treat my roommate too.
I pray that I accomplish all my goals this weekend. Please bless me with restorative rest. I love You with all my heart and soul.
And for anyone reading this, help them remember to care for their bodies — to nourish themselves with good food, to get proper sleep, and to drink water. Help them do something kind for themselves and be a blessing to someone else this weekend. Remind them to spend time with You, for You are our strength. Grant them a peace that surpasses all understanding. Send love their way. Most of all, let them know that You are always willing and longing to be close to them — that You desire a deep, personal relationship with them.
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