Here is who I am… –
Just myself.
Alone.
(Ian’s wife)
(No one’s mother)

Here is what I am –
…Estranged.
Confused.
Indecisive.

Here is where I am –
…On my own.
Far from security.
In an apartment I will soon abandon.
On the verge of admitting middle age.

Here is how I am… –
In a bad way.
Alone.
Desperate.

Here is who I want to be –
…Someone’s (Ian’s?) complement.
Someone else entirely.

Here is what I do –
…Work.
Work.
Work.
Never get ahead.
Plan.
Try.
Fail.

Here is what I see –
…Shadows, shapes, unfocused and unnamed.
Nothing clearly.

Here is what I need… –
Someone to enlighten me.
A way out.

Here is what I need to do –
…Decide.

Here is why I am… –
No longer even applicable.

Here is where I am going……