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I am a woman living with three cats but that doesn't make me a crazy cat lady. It's all the other stuff I do that mark me as crazy. The cats are purely incidental.
A Fragile Equilibrium
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People, kinds and unkind in Deplorable thoughts
There are people you talk to and people you avoid. Benny, my neighbor on the next block, falls squarely into the second category. He has a nice enough little house, a bit worn and tired like most...
Used to be mad about you in Well now
I don’t mind quiet in small doses, but long stretches of silence tend to bother me. Living alone can be a very quiet experience, so I have my little aural crutches. The tenant on the other s...
Luck of the lactose tolerant in Well now
On the way home from work this afternoon I stopped at a convenience store to pick up this week’s lottery tickets. Both the mega and the power ball are at insanely high levels, but I’m treating ...
Winter's breath in Well now
Sitting in my study, the portable heater at my feet, still wearing my faux shearling coat and fluffiest knit scarf, typing to warm up my frozen fingers. I keep the house cool in the wintertime,...
Boxes of fun in Well now
It was twelve days ago that I left the office with a box of work and an absolute delusion that I was some other person, some sensible person who was going to take that box home over the holid...
Defensive lying in Well now
This was another non-Christmas for me. That’s okay because it was, as usual, completely my choice. Alright. You might be thinking, Christmas alone, not celebrating the day, damn girl, that’s jus...
Feel it still in Well now
Chasing attendance, exam style. Everyone should have shown up, all on time, all ready. but they don’t. So there I am, running around from classroom to classroom, double checking that the stude...
An entry that starts bad but gets better in Well now
I am finding myself in a strange state tonight, working hard to maintain a façade of calm, attempting to exercise the ability to ignore the things that are truly unnerving me. The numbers, oh hea...
Having a good time in Well now
Dripping rainwater, I’ve just returned from outside. I waited too late to start, but I actually prefer working in the cooling rain to the unbearable heat. There were the huge rolling garbage bins...
Saturday morning - It’s just past eleven and I am finishing a break. I have been a relatively good, relatively old girl this morning. I slept in, again relatively. Instead of getting up at five t...
Unrelieved in Deplorable thoughts
The man stood in my doorway bemoaning his difficult day. He’s a genial fellow and, having many difficult days myself, I don’t begrudge him using me as a pressure valve. We all need to blow off ...
Alter images in Lay me down
Ethan looked strikingly like his long-gone father, terribly handsome, all fine bones and fair skin, though Ian’s light hair was never so long and attractively unkempt. Those eyes, though, cl...
At least I'm bringing pizza in Well now
Okay, Nathe and I haven’t really been talking for a few months now, which has been a bit of an emotional vacation, but, since I was never really mad at him about his last bizarre blow-up, I made...
Breathless in Boystories
Ever laughed so hard you could barely breathe? It started with me going random in the hallway. I do that now and again, okay, more often than now and again. Okay, okay, I go random with the boys ...
Red handed in Boystories
I looked at the mother’s note and then at the grinning boy standing before me, both arms blood red from fingertips to elbows. Technically, his problem was a grooming violation and every teacher ...
About Harvey in Well now
I haven’t mentioned Harvey even though I’ve been glued to the screen watching. I don’t know what to say. Absolutely terrible. I feel so awful for everyone affected. I am beyond empathy. Beaumont...
A question in Well now
Because I am both a technidiot and cheap, I am unable to post pics anymore. (And I have need to illustrate some of my more serious craziness.) I used to be able to get pics into my entries by usi...
Every last ticket is a winner... in Obsessive
When I purchase them, While they’re in my purse, In my hand, On my desk… Until I check the numbers on the site and find out that, against all personal conviction, my lottery ticket is not the big...
Brain explosion in Deplorable thoughts
I cannot find words. I’m totally scrambled. Beyond belief. He’s dropped any pretense. He’s openly supporting white supremacists. “there were good people in that crowd…” Really? You can put on sy...
Many sides in Deplorable thoughts
I don’t know. I don’t want to agree with the man, but what he says does sound reasonable and right. The president condemns the hatred and violence in Charlottesville “from many sides.” It woul...
Did I mention that the retreat was an overnight thing? Seriously, overnight adult retreat house trapped indoor camping with people most of whom I actively do not love, many of whom give me unwa...
Putting it together in Well now
I’m not saying the pressure was on, but everyone in the group was looking at me, without a clue how I was going to pull this one together. It was one of those lovely soul-searching team building ...
My mind's not right in Well now
Polluted. Simply polluted. I am not in control of my mind’s autocorrect. I watch, well actually listen, to too much television. I need the background noise. I always have. A child of the sixties ...
