This time of year used to make me so sick and angry. I only ever wanted to destroy humanity around the holidays. Not like I already hate the world, but the holidays just really got to me. My husband and I have our first Christmas tree up together..It’s beautiful. He’s always had a real tree in his home while all mine have been the same fake tree every year which is stored in a big blue rubbermaid bin. This year we have a fake one which his grandmother had in storage, we took it out (I crushed my phone in the process and cracked the screen a bit :( ) But we managed to get it out of storage, which was tiny.. luckily, I’m tiny too . I wedged my way in and pulled it out successfully, got it in her car, had to take off the top of the tree first. I’ve never put together a pre-lighted tree and now I know I don’t like it. Everything stays stuck together. We brought it back to my place and I put it together. A light was missing so some of the lights weren’t working so his grandmother picked some lights up for us and we decorated it when we got up last night. He had the night off so yeah!! After we put the tree together (with all kinds of fun dollar store decorations we watched The Purge and The Purge Anarchy…fantastic movies.
Fuck I can’t wait for Christmas. Last year was just hell…I wish my parents never came over last Christmas, they screwed everything up..my uncle with his big mouth, my father egging him on…In the apartment that I had nothing in, no fridge, or stove, or bed…not even my fucking husband!!! No!!! Because Canadian customs made him go back to the states. I was so alone, we both were. We’ve been through so much pain, everyone is against us. We’ve lost friends, our so-called families refuse to help us and as for the government…yeah…I can’t work and Alec works nightcrew at a grocery store. And we owe a few thousand to them so I can get myself a Social Security Number and I’d finally be able to start working.
But anyway, we’re just getting ready for Christmas..We’re going to take what was denied from us last year. Everything we went though in those 8 months of agony will be made right this year. Cause I’d say we fucking deserve it.
It’s time we weren’t alone anymore.
-Wolfy
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