Yeah, I did tease you yesterday when I said I was spilling the “T”. And after all that, my keyboard finally went kaput, so I guess the joke is actually on me today. I think the keyboard is dead. Thank goodness I still have a working computer at all (Mercury retrograde is coming, please don’t jinx it!).
TODAY’s Big Item is to get this squamous cell carcinoma lump removed from my arm. I’m so glad I have this dermatologist appointment today. Ughh. I was tempted to give this motherfucker a name, but then that would actually make it more a part of me. I don’t want that in the least. The lesion’s essentially grown into a whole entity. It’s the fastest-growing lump I’ve ever seen. CUT IT OUT, NOW!!!
So I will take Martini to daycare today, head on down to the appointment, take myself to lunch, and maybe take a nice walk downtown and around the city trail for the day, depending on how I’m feeling after this procedure.
First day of unemployment was a lot. I started the day with a boatload of anxiety. Like, real stress I had to work through when I know there’s no income stream coming in, yet my income is going OUT every second. This is such a fear that I have!
And sending out resumes and networking is a FULL. TIME. JOB. I was at my desk from 10am (yes, got a late start) to 6pm finding job descriptions, then researching, only to find that a lot of things aren’t even worth the time and energy to pursue, then reaching out to people.
One of the things that had me really upset yesterday is that I’ve been keeping a little bit of a secret for fear of jinxing myself. I had a VERY, VERY good interview last week with a company that would put me in a perfect situation: back to my former city, doing the things that I excel at, with a product that I LOVE. I’d talked to HR two weeks ago when I was back in my former city for my doc appointments, and then we set up a video interview with the hiring manager who literally told me that I was a great fit for the role!!
She told me that I was going to get a call-back from the HR person to set up times for group interviews with the owner of the company and the CEO late last week so that we could interview this week.
I saw that the CEO and the owner looked at my LinkedIn profile, which is a really great sign (but also a sign that they may have been comparing profiles with someone else), I sent follow-up emails to the HR person and the hiring manager…
Nothing.
I know it’s a waiting game and a numbers game, but this IGNORING shit is so fucking rude and stressful. Just hire me and give me medical insurance, please. That’s all I am asking for.
Interestingly, later in the afternoon, I got a text from a former boss, who said I’d been on her mind. Wow. Crazy. My brain must be sending out the waves. Long story short, we ended up talking later, and we caught up, and she told me she’s watching out for opportunities for me.
And then she asked me if I’d be on her podcast that she’s creating. It’s a podcast about “messy lives” and how people deal with the mess. HAHAHA!
She was actually really sweet about it because she said she’d been thinking about how I got through my colon cancer “journey” with so much openness and grace. She said she observed me so well put together during that time, and with such a positive attitude (while pulling myself through the absolute yuck and mess that is cancer treatment), and she wanted to share that with her audience. I told her I would be honored. We don’t have a date set yet, but I was truly touched by her request.
And you know how much I love to talk/write about myself, ha!!
And speaking of talking about myself, I can’t remember if I told you about the fact that I already have a date for New Year’s Eve this year??
I think I did. I think I told you that this guy lives in Central America right now, but is moving back to the USA sometime early next year. Does that ring a bell? No?
His name is…what shall we call him? Rafael? I like that. It’s kind of close to his actual name.
Anyway, Rafael has been following my IG for years. We were work acquaintances. He was a vendor of a previous company of mine - we never worked together, but Raf told me last night on our very first phone call, that he remembers the first time he ever saw me… maybe in 2000, at my former office. He said he saw me walking by and immediately asked his colleague who I was. He said that at the time he was “very married”, so of course, I never heard any of this. Until now!
It actually made my heart flutter a bit. I remember those days fondly. I didn’t even know what I had when I had it back then. I think I was always so focused on crazy work stuff! I worked in a palace of an office with so much human interaction. I worked hard and I did a good job. I was trying to climb that corporate ladder… but clearly the boys never took me seriously. Sad, really.
ANYWAY, through the years, Rafael has slid into my DMs here and there, and I’d occasionally acknowledge his messages, but never thought it was anything. Until he started expressing interest.
Long story, we found ourselves talking on the phone last night and…oh, what a nice conversation. His accent is freaking HOT. And he’s a cutie for sure. Also, long divorced, and very single right now. Thank goodness.
So, we’ll see what happens. We’re trying to make our plans for NYE. It’s so nice to have something to look forward to.
Now, things to look forward to today: (1) workout, (2) skin cancer 100% removed, (3) a call-back from that muthafuckin’ company, (4) world domination!
xox,
GS
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