1:30 am
10/2/25
Saturday night (so a few days ago) I found out that someone at work died. Not here, but at a hospital or something. She died August the 27th. I always saw her and she worked in the produce department. I’d always walk by with food in my hand and mouth. I’d awkwardly smirk and she’d always smile.
I haven’t seen her in a while and I guess I went on until I saw her post it card outside our break room wall. How many times have I walked past it? That’s who the big get well card was for. I was all, who is Dana? What’s wrong with Dana? I didn’t even know her name, but Catherine had her on her Facebook. I told her that I was sorry for her loss.
It made me sad. She has worked for the company for 33 years and that’s all she got? Just a small spot with a white tack. That’s it.
It made me sad. I cried Sunday morning after getting home from work. I didn’t know her but we had that one mutual friend. She always smiled at me. I don’t talk to people at work and I, I don’t know. Why was I so sad?
Work has been okay.
Yasmine quit. Or got fired. I’m not sure. As a lead I get emails that says held a conversation with so and so, or performed a separation session and off boarding. When it says off boarding, it means that they got terminated. Maybe not fired but it means they’re out of our system. She looked like Mariana and I always wanted to ask her for a contact, but she was married. She always stopped and talked to me.
Now I’m trying to hold it together. I don’t do well with sadness. Or sad things. I don’t know.
That Sunday I had lunch with my mum and sister. I woke up at around 11 am and I asked her if she was free to eat. Also texted a coworker that thinking it was my mum. Nope. So I called a coworker mum.
What else? Someone in my apartment complex is smoking weed again. And OF COURSE it had to make my apartment smell. I told our landlord and they’re going to put a notice on their door. It’s something?
I bought deli lunch meat yesterday. Or the day before? It was Tuesday. I got cajun turkey and garlick and herbs chicken. Someone told me that it’s healthier than Land Oh Frost black forest ham and all that other stuff. Is it true? No clue. But it was expensive as FUCK. $20 dollars for two pounds! I got a pound of each. Taste though.
I’m trying to lose weight without having to hit the gym. I’m too tired after work because work is mentally draining me. So I had a garlic and herbs chicken sandwich. Nothing fancy. Two slices of bread, two slices of the chicken, one leaf of lettuce, and a small serving of 22 chips and two small cookies. I think my lunch was a little under 400 calories. I won’t eat again until 3/5 pm today. So it’s 1 am now, so about 15 hours later I’ll eat. I’ll have a cajun turkey sandwich and chips.
That’s all I’ve got.
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