7:20 am
9/24/25
I feel better, but I think it’s that high you get after being sick for the past three days. Now I want to clean up and decorate my place. Actually, I’m bored. I saw some girl on YouTube decorating her apartment with fall decorations and a new TV fireplace stand. I have $2,800 dollars saved up. This is the most I’ve had in a year or two. Okay, I had $3,000 when Raspberry had that UTI and I had to visit the emergency vet a few times.
It’s the most I’ve had since then.
I want to decorate my place but, at the same time I HATE it. The pictures online make it look nice but it’s not. Maybe it’s my unit? Whoever lived here last let the trip get coated in some weird yellow stuff. Animal piss? Dog drool? No clue, but it’s there and on the walls. That’s part of the reason as to WHY I haven’t decorated this place.
I can’t even share a photo because this fucking place is falling apart. It isn’t tablet slash phone friendly, and I’m not about to buy a computer just to post imgur photos of a shitty apartment.
I’ll get these highs where I want to decorate the place and make it my own, but the neighbors dog smells. Their dog smell leaks into my apartment and it’s either I smell that dumb ass dog BO smell or I give myself a headache with wax melts. Which one do you think I pick?
It’s as bad as having Indian people as your neighbors. I ain’t talking about Native Americans. This dog smell is right on up there with them and their cooking. If you haven’t had one as a neighbor, you can’t understand. Don’t say in racist until you have experienced it. I think they should be charged more for being an inconvenience to everyone around them. Or make them cook outside. Where did I live at that time? Oh yeah, college days.
Fuck, you know you’re old when you’re forgetting how old you are and you younger days.
Now I sound like all those old farts!
I’m half tempted to clean the walls and trim. But then I’m all, what for? I want to leave this dump, but at the same time it’s close to work.
If it snows, I can walk to work. I’m that close.
This dump has its pros and cons, but if they could give me a different neighbor or a dog free unit, I’d be okay with the cheap ass dishwasher and paper thin walls and shitty cabinets. I don’t even have anything in my cabinets and my washer stopped working half a year ago.
I could get them to fix it but again, why? I have one knife, two forks, and I hate that I spell out numbers and then write them out like this, 1 pan, 1 plate, and zero cups.
With nice lighting, the place looks okay. It looks modern, but when you’re up close and seeing in person, it’s trash. Like a meth head who got a professional makeup artist. Like those love after lock up girls. They look like trash but then the studio makeup artist does their thing and you’re all, damn, she’s not that bad looking when she’s all dolled up. That’s what this apartment is like.
I hate it and like it. I like it when I can’t smell the damn dogs on both sides of my apartment. I hate it when I hear ever fight and every girl getting cracked, smashed, fucked, same thing. I hear it all. The neighbor who kept fighting with her guy? Heard every slap. This is why I always have my headphones on. The only time they are not on is when I’m falling asleep, putting my Xbox controller down, or listening to music as I get ready for work.
And I’m sure they here me talking to my cats.
How thin are my walls???
Bro…I can fucking hear what they’re playing on their cell phone. Excuse me, mobile phone. I have to talk old now.
I know that if I plan things out, they’ll never happen. If I don’t do shit and say fuck it, shot happens.
A girl at work that I’m friends with told me that I need to say it out loud for the universe to make it happen. Bro I am fucking screaming at the shy to send me someone nice. It’s been decades and I haven’t had anyone nice. Or anyone that didn’t end up in a transactional relationship. Or a situational ship. Or they were interested until they found out that there’s a MASSIVE age gap between us. Unless money is involved.
I hate this place so much that I rarely keep food in here because Raspberry will eat anything left out. The cabinets are dirty and I don’t feel like touching all that filth.
Fuck it. I ain’t gonna clean unless they come to inspect this dump.
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