Work: Oh god, it’s getting worse. I like to check in with my CEO (Kitty Cat) weekly. She’s the literal only sane person at the company. She’s honestly the only reason I’m still with the company (well, that and the fact that the job market is scary right now). So we talked for two hours yesterday (Friday), just catching up on the biz and both of us doing a little bit of complaining about how Head Cat can’t make a decision and is just the absolute worst…when she finally breaks down and tells me that she’s made the decision to leave the company! OH MY GOD. This is a shocker because she’s been his business partner over sixteen years and he has been giving her the freaking cold shoulder - essentially forcing her out of the business! What a fucking dick. I had zero respect for this dude, and now it’s down to the negative numbers. Luckily, she essentially gave me a 3-month notice. She wasn’t going to tell me, but I know she knows that I’m super unhappy anyway, so she wanted to give me a heads up. I will not work for this company when she’s gone. They can SUCK IT. I just dread really hitting the pavement hard, ya know? Finding a new job is tough - as you know, I’ve been dabbling here and there - talking with people ever since I got this job because I knew it was going to be temporary, but now it’s truly GO TIME. Yes, it’s been time for a long time, but now it’s ON. I have to search for a job as if I’m already unemployed. This really sucks.
Dating: I’ve already grown tired of Bumble again. After those two dates and being bummed about them, I got sick of it and stopped engaging. This is no way to find a partner, but I’m so annoyed by men anyway. Gah. I think the Astronomer CEO/Coldplay incident was another thing that just made me remember why I think men are not a great idea right now, if ever. I also think that being post-menopausal, my drive to even be with a man seems to come and go. I’m just not that into them a majority of the time. Do they really offer anything better than what a good girlfriend can? And I mean, yes, I do love the idea of smooshing my body up against a big, strong, masculine human and feeling that safety…but I’m also totally into zero sleep interruptions as well. Plusses and minuses, and solo tends to feel more comfortable. I realize that I have to break out of my comfort zone in order to do this. And I also realize that it would likely be worth it to break out. Ugh. I think I’m realizing that my problem is that I’m too comfortable in all areas of my life right now!
Mom and Dad: Are hanging in there! I talk with them almost every evening, and they’re doing well now that they are back living in the main part of the house. I’m so glad that they have their old place back, even though it’s not quite the same since my bro and SIL sort of wrecked the place. They are now living much more like an extended family rather than my parents sort of stuck in the little attached apartment. I think they are thriving a little better. I will go see them next Saturday and bring a big lunch with enough food that they can have leftovers. I’ll be packing for a week-long trip, starting with Mom and Dad’s place, then to [old city] to see Best Bud, then a biz trip to Vegas, then back to [old city] to see Marce and maybe my financial advisor, and then home. Whew! But anyway, back to Mom and Dad. Sometimes I feel like they are my besties since I talk to them more than I really do anyone else (especially my dad). I’m so glad we’ve gotten so close these last several years. I’m lucky.
Martini: My other bestie. Remember she was not doing so well and I was worried about her? Well, she’s nearly back to her old puppy energy now! I honestly think she’d hurt her back or something …like strained a muscle. But she’s better and is about to turn 11 years old on Monday! How wild is that? My love and constant companion. What would I do without her? I am working on finding her yet another babysitter to take care of her when I go see my Nashville girls in October. I hope this new person works out. It’s actually really good for us to have time away from each other every now and then because we both get really comfortable with the status quo (are you sensing a theme here?) and we need to shake things up from time to time.
Health/Workouts: Another component of my life I need to shake up a bit! As I’m writing this entry I realize that I’m using my writing as a way to procrastinate. I need to do my daily workout that I didn’t do this morning (it’s now NOON!). I also need to get on the stick and get registered for pickleball classes. I’ve been promising myself that I’d do that for weeks now - ever since my pickleball league ended.
Okay. Looks like I’ve created my own marching orders:
- New job search via networking, applying, and generally getting back out there.
- Figure out something creative for dating (new Bumble approach, join a meetup group of some kind, other?)
- Start packing for trip and planning the lunch situation for Mom and Dad
- Martini birthday plans!
- Today’s workout
- Sign up for pickleball drills/classes
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