An early hydrangea. Absolutely gorgeous day out there today. Warm sunny afternoon. Warm! We haven’t felt that often lately. Just a few days. So welcome.
Today was a bit of a washout. I was so tired yesterday by the afternoon I was barely functional. I thought I would feel better today but I think the cumulative effect of all the things lately and the relief of being through the most challenging bits for now made it hard for me to stay asleep last night. Weird.
Mrs. Sherlock was going to come over this morning and take me to my favorite plant store and I was so looking forward to that but when I realized how exhausted and possibly sick, I was this morning we rescheduled to Wednesday. She has been way too busy lately anyway. When I saw her on Thursday she looked as exhausted as I felt.
Also, I told my students yesterday I would record a new half hour joint mobilization practice they could use next week while I was taking time off and the only time slot I had to do that was this morning. Later watching the replay there was a moment where I got my fingers and toes mixed up. Oh well, hopefully it is charming rather than annoying.
Once I got all that and some paperwork done, I have been reading, listening to podcasts and napping the rest of the day. I am finally beginning to feel somewhat coherent this afternoon.
Our Annual Membership meeting went well. Our now past president provided excellent leadership, and she was hugely relieved. Our new president gave a rousing speech at the end, a skill that will come in handy for her for the next two years. She was also exhausted and mildly sick with a school age daughter and a full-time job. This is Portland, she rode her bike to the venue.
She also rode her bike downtown yesterday to meet me and our past president at the bank for an authorization hand over. It took quite a while but was very congenial and not only did we visit with each other the bank employees visited with us. It is a credit union, and the lobby was full of interesting playful art. All of us were relieved when we parted ways. Our past president is leaving tomorrow for a cross Canada train trip.
No one gave me a hard time about the numbers I provided. I was confident about them and their source but concerned about presentation and nitpicking. We raised $17,000 which will go to valuable work this next year. So overall, the event was a success. The smoothest of these I have been too. Our volunteer of the year, an amazing woman, went to The London School of Economics and a couple of years ago caught a miscalculation in our budget. The one my predecessor compiled. We were all anxious about that not happening again and it didn’t. Whew.
I do have some challenges on the horizon but having been through the cycle now I think I can manage them. I just hope this next year is less stressful than this one was. The tax status change and the complete reorganization of our city government and move to ranked choice voting…whoa baby.
Carlo has been happy to have me home and mostly prone today. My mouth is healing nicely. I did have about three days this week where I couldn’t handle anything that resembled calorie restriction and so I ate whatever I wanted in quantity. It wasn’t emotional eating exactly; it was more a recognition that the stress I was feeling required extra resources.
I had a helpful interaction with Claude the Anthropic AI last night about the pros and cons of weighing in this morning knowing that my weight would be up. For at least a year I have been weighing myself once a week on Saturday mornings. In the end, with the recognition that I was going to need to manage my emotional reaction to having my weight up I went ahead and did it. A week and one additional lbs. does not make a blow my program out of the water event, and I am back on track.
Overall, I weigh less than I have in 13 years. I feel like I still have more to go, certainly managing my feelings watching the recording of myself teaching this morning lead me in this direction but my active body may have other ideas. I will honor that. But man, I truly do not want to gain the weight I lost back. Been there done that. Would like this to be the last time as I am not dieting. It is more like I am collaborating with my body on this journey.
Typing here I can feel myself coming back slowly into a state of equilibrium and that feels so very good. That is my current mission, to rest, restore and fully enjoy this late spring day.
In spite of all the insanity going on out there.
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