work cutbacks in Riverdale

So im pretty upset. My job which is only two days a week has now decided to have me work one day a week.

Its a cash job so the supplement was good.

I have very little money. I was obviously trying to find another part time job ontop of this one. But this makes it even fucking harder to find another one being so isolated and broke and going through so much shit with my ex and my family.

My mom is helping me out but shes is TOO hard on me and expects me to get a job that she thinks I should have. She expects I should be able to find a new job right away its really getting to me.

My expectations are low, I am looking for a part time kitchen or cafe job min wage. I cant afford to right now look for the job of my dreams. I am getting sick and tired of relying so much on my mom and have her call me names and be passive aggressive and awful to me. Its not so much sometimes about the money solely its her lack of support in me even trying to find a new job shes not supportive or understanding about how stressful and hard it can be especially at first. My mom got a new job after she lost hers like right away and it was practically HANDED to her so she doesnt understand that not everything comes so fast for others. She just pisses me off, she goes on about how her bfs friend who she is SOO close with is a manager at this retail place and the second I ask her if maybe my mom can put in a good word for me shes all dicey about it and not persistent at all. Like pulls some strings or try to pull some strings for your own fucking daughter?!? she doesnt really care to tell you the truth. She tells me how much she wants me to get a job obviously but she is not even positive about me getting one she is just pressuring me and blaming me and she doesnt HAVE to help me but her moral support would be nice.....

So I have just really gave up on relying on her for anything positive or job wise. I will figure it out on my own. A girl from my job has been really helpful and supportive towards me finding another job and has forwarded me some resources and job leads which I appreciate she is so sweet despite her being so busy herself. I am knitting her a scarf right now…

otherwise I am doing all I can to get a job and trying not to stress too much. But its just hard I have about 10 dollars to live on till wed and thats only another 20 dollars really. I went to a food bank and got SOME food but they dont really give u anything substantial just soups and cans and snacks.

Oh well ive lost a lot of weight about eight pounds from stress money issues.

I really hate relying on the system because the system sucks so the faster I can get a survival job the better. My confidence and mental health is not too bad yet so I want to take advanatage of that and hopefully I get something soon. I hope that It doesnt take long with winter setting in and being so isolated and dealing with my ex issues and depression issues. The faster I get a job and money the better because if it takes too long it will be harder to feel this productive hopefull and calm…

all I want is a bit of money to do things on my terms until I can figure all this shit out....