I got back on the horse and like I said I had a date with a guy Tuesday and saw him again Saturday. We ended up spending Saturday and Sunday together because the attention was nice and I let him stay at my house. Why? Because I’m dumb.
At least I didn’t sleep with him…well I did but not in the fun way. I wanted to try that waiting thing people always tell me to do.
But ok let me recap the weekend for some perspective. Saturday morning I met with a girl to buy a bag from her. Easy to do and I looooove this bag! After I met with my friend to help her buy a phone. So we eat some breakfast around 12 and go phone shopping until 4ish using my mad Turkish skillz. She walked away with a shiny used phone and I got to feel special for speaking Turkish. Win win!
The guy met up with us and we had some foods and then he helped us activate the phone and my friend went off to enjoy her new phone. It’s now like 7ish and my dog needed me. So um the idiot I am said ok let’s go walk my dog then we will come back here.
Obviously we just stayed at mine. But really we had so much fun. We talked we laughed and he farted and I burped. We ate pizza and watched tv. He commented that it felt we had been married for 20 years. It was nice. I told him to stay. Around 2ish we headed for the bed where I was very adamant no sex would be happening. We made out a lot. I rejected his advances and told him it’s not happening and to just enjoy the kisses.
Next morning we woke up late. Eventually headed to the city center to have lunch. My friends met up with us for a drink and we laughed so much and he kept stealing kisses from me and it all seems too good to be true.
All week we have been messaging and phone calls and sharing feelings and misses and Emoji kisses. I’m smitten.
Smitten is bad for me. I don’t trust easily. This connection with him seems too good to be true. So what do I do? I panic. I think the worst. I get scared. Why me? Why does he like ME?
I’m supposed to meet with him tomorrow (Thursday) for dinner and drinks. We also have plans for Sunday as he is busy Saturday. But I don’t know if I want to go. I mean I do want to go. I want to see him and get hugs and kisses. I want to put my head on his shoulder and kiss his bearded cheeks. I want this connection to actually be real and not some really good show to get me to bed. But I’m scared. Scared to get hurt. Scared that it’s just too good and he just knows all the right things to say.
So what do I do? Go and lay down the line? Freak him out and ask for a label? Ask him if this is for real? Pretend everything is good in my head? I just don’t know. Too scared to proceed. And too scared to lose it.
I’ve actually met a guy before that I had the same thing with. Great connection great conversation and he ended up stealing money from my bag and being a dick!
help! :/
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