I was embarrassed to ask the missionaries about masturbation, so I took to the internet to find the answer. Unfortunately the answer I got was the answer I expected to get. The church is opposed to masturbation. Apparently I’m not going to be specifically asked about it, but I feel like if I am going to commit to the church, I need to be able to obey its teachings. I know that some people take their church commitments for granted and don’t worry about such things, but I figure that there is no point in joining a church unless I am willing to really make it a part of my life.
So the bottom line is that I need to quit masturbating, something I have done almost daily since I figured out how to do it when I was 11. It’s definitely a habit. I’ll often masturbate in the morning as soon as I wake up and then again at night before going to bed. It’s not purely for sexual pleasure, and I will often find myself masturbating not long after having satisfying sex with Jayson. I just do it because I enjoy doing it.
It was Thursday afternoon when I looked it up online. I considered masturbating one last time before giving it up, but I decided that wasn’t really the right attitude. So I haven’t touched myself since then. It hasn’t been easy, but I’m committed to the idea. I feel like it’s one more thing that’s making be a better person.
I’ve given up smoking, coffee, and booze. I was never too big of a fan of the last two, but it is still tough to know I won’t ever be drinking them again. I’ve given up pornography, something I didn’t watch frequently but did enjoy from time to time. And now I’ve given up masturbation.
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