I might like this in Attempting to journal

Well, I think i might be starting to like Journaling. I feel like I can talk about what’s going on without the pressure or worry about the other person. When you tell real people about crappy things in your life they either think your making drama or wanting sympathy, or are so sympathetic and want to help even if you don’t know how they could help or they are sympathetic and can’t help or don’t want to help and then they get awkward or distant or both. On here I can say it and nothing else will happen except maybe a comment or two but even those don’t come with expectations. Anyway. So my daughter went up to live with relatives and continued smoking cannabis. Well to not surprise, she is back to behaving crazy. Not hallucinating this time, that I’m aware of but rude, not logical, not treating people how she normally does. She tried to convince my aunt that there was something wrong with my uncle, When my aunt didn’t agree, she gave her the silent treatment like a child. Then they tried to take her to the hospital because her thinking something was wrong with my uncle wasn’t logical and they were worried she was hallucinating again. At the hospital she began screaming and yelling at my aunt swearing and calling her names because she has a farm cat that pees in the house if she isn’t outside because she doesn’t like the litter box and my daughter doesn’t agree with how they are handling it. So my aunt said ” if your going to treat me this way I don’t want you at my house” and the cops took her from the hospital to a shelter. The next day she was at some hotel apparently and got in an argument with someone and somehow vandalized the lobby. They called the cops and she was arrested and even kicked the cop who was arresting her. She spent the night in jail and they took her back to the hospital who refused to keep her because her health care isn’t the right one. So they got social work involved and they are going to help her get to a shelter near where her health insurance works in case she has more issues. I’m glad to hear about where she is. She isn’t talking to me through this because i told her not to fight with my aunt about the cat, before the first hospital visit, so I only have my worried and little crumbs of info I can find. I was homeless as a young person and I don’t wish it on my worst enemy. It’s so so cold too! I feel like I’m going through a death. My baby is gone, my toddler is gone, my preteen is gone, my teenager is gone, and now even the adult I thought she grew into, is gone. She was not the kind of person to scream at people for no logical reason, she isn’t the kind to ignore the obvious and keep doing what’s harming her, she is usually so sweet and nice and loves her mom and sisters, always greatful for people who help her etc. This person who is getting arrested, I don’t know her! So i feel like the daughter i knew is gone and now I’m terrified I’m going to lose this new daughter too. In my last post I said it was the most painful thing I’d been through as a parent. I was wrong....this is.