Thanksgiving 2024 in Journal 2024

Im going to try to write more so here’s my 2024 Thanksgiving entry. My mother and I drove out of state this morning while it was dark and pouring to get my cousin (middle). It was surprisingly easy despite the heavy rain and wind on the bridge.

Home was nice. I ate and managed a full plate. I imagine Manuel is proud of me for that. Manuel’s been very nice and kind as of late but I can’t help but feel anxious. He’s coming to visit and I want to make a good first impression.

I don’t want to be ugly. Thank God tmw is black friday my card is ready. Also it was around this time last year all that stuff happened. It makes him feel upset so I don’t talk about it much. I don’t think I wrote about it.

It’s a depressing thing for me to talk about and very private. I felt very alone and then I thought I was going to abandoned all over again. So you can imagine im a ball of nerves. But it’ll be fine.