Has anyone ever had a good break up? This one seems to my extra painful.
Since being in Turkey I have had 3 boyfriends and 3 break ups. One was big. I moved here for him. We were engaged and he cheated and it hurt a lot. But I was able to see he was bad for me and I was happy to move on and after a week or so I was ok.
The 2nd was the easiest. He and I were basically just fooling around and no real emotion was there. I ended it and felt no sadness from it. I only felt the annoyance of finding someone again.
This last one hurts the most and I can’t pin point it. We dated over a year. I knew it would end because he didn’t want to get married or have kids ever. Recently we have been fighting and arguing a lot but we always knew the love was there. We broke up on good terms and want to remain friends. We had a closeness we didn’t want to loose and a lack of close friends. We still needed each other around. But now I find out he’s leaving for 5 months for work. So we won’t be close. He won’t be around. We have a dog together. I rely on his car to take care of her. I just feel overwhelmed that sometime this week I’ll lose him not as my lover but as my friend. Maybe I’m getting old. Maybe it hurts because I thought he would change. I don’t know.
I don’t feel like myself at the moment I know myself well enough to tell I’m not ok. Everyone says I’m so sorry how are you doing. And I always respond I’m fine it’s ok we weren’t happy.
But it’s all lies because I’m not ok but the only person I’m close enough to is him. So what can I do? Pretend. Move on. Talk to new guys. Go on dates and hope for the wound to heal up.
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