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I swear my parents are trying to get evicted from this place and I have to really get things figured out before that happens. They tried to ask me if Derek and I would take over the lease. Um no! That is NOT our responsibility. How nice for them to just ditch out of the lease, leave me stuck with it and in the ghetto while they go off and do other things.

So I talked to my uncle who wants to sell me his mobile home. It is in a nice area, the only bad part is the space rent is $870 a month. Yes, that means the ghetto people probably stay out of the park, but it also means if I take out a loan to purchase it, I will have to be paying off the loan plus space rent. Derek is ready to move in with me and likes the opportunity it gives us. Especially since my uncle is willing to sell it to me for $15,000 and it is worth $25,000. I would have to get a lot of work done on it and I just don’t know if I can make it all work financially, but I am willing to try. I am going to take a look at it the end of this month and see how much needs to be done and whether or not I can even take out a loan. My uncle says he will work with me and be the bank, whatever that means. I feel pressured to get into the place right away and I really wish I had more time to save up more money. But in the long run it will be a great investment and would be ideal since I plan to go to ULV if all works out school wise.

I talked to the adviser at ULV and if I can get a pell grant plus a cal grant, he says they usually offer a higher rate for private schools and it could easily cover tuition. I would love to go there for my Bachelor’s instead of San Berndo. I told him about my plans of finishing my BA in Psych., and I need roughly 45 units to complete that. Then I talked to the person in charge regarding the Psy. D program…which is basically a Masters+PhD program that awards you a Masters after two years and a Psy. D after 6 years and 1500 clinical hours (agh!). I am very excited about it! I would have a better chance of getting into that program if I studied my undergrad at ULV so I could get to know all the professors and have recommendation letters written by them. I would also need to score pretty high on the GRE. The best part of it was hearing that they encourage the students in the program to intern OUTSIDE of California!!! That is amazing to hear because the one thing I was worried about was getting everything done here and being stuck here after licensing and everything. But after learning that I was just like wow. This can’t get more perfect. In 8-10 years I will own/have paid off a mobile home and have a phd and then doors will finally open up for me. I want to move to North Carolina to be close to Andrea and Tyler, but I am really hoping by then they move to Washington. I am practically drooling imagining having my own practice over looking the puget sound in seattle. Ahhhhhhhhh
Now it is time to buckle down and do the work!!! Which thankfully, school has always been fun for me so I don’t see the problem in that part :)

Well, I have officially put my two weeks notice in at the deli. It was just getting too much for me. Especially with the new manager there…she is such a Bitch. It is difficult working with such a lazy, inconsiderate manager. The hours were getting to be too much. Like coming in some days at 6a.m. My sleep schedule has been so off since other days I’d close at the YH and not get home until 2:30 in the morning. It is also a ton of work to work in a deli and not good pay. There’s also this guy T that works there that I realized things could go a certain way and I don’t need that in my life.

I ended up getting hired at this new restaurant as a bartender and I have orientation tomorrow morning, but I am not sure how it is going to work out there since they haven’t even opened yet and the week they open I am scheduled five serving shifts at the YH. Eeeek. I will see if I could make it work.
Well it was D’s birthday yesterday and I threw him a surprise party on Saturday. So many of our friends came and it was a lot of fun! I bought a cake from Coldstone (the best!) and they made some delicious food. We all got a bit too drunk, and I ended up passing out around 1. Well little did I know, they opened up a bottle of Belvedere and finished it off so by 3 in the morning D stumbles into the room shitfaced and he and I got into a big fight…he ended up cussing me out and slamming the door (he NEVER does that). So I wanted to leave, but my coworkers convinced me to stay thankfully and I passed out on the couch and left early the next day after taking ALL of my things from his room. He woke up seriously confused and everyone filled him in on what he did/said. So he was very remorseful and I understood, it was just really aggravating. His drinking has just been getting out of control lately. But since that night he has promised to cut out hard alcohol. Also, he hasn’t smoked in two weeks since he is trying to clean his system and apply for a job he has a good lead on. He took me out Tuesday night and we actually had a really good night and a long talk about everything. I ended up telling him I just didn’t know if I was really in love or not and that scared me and he said he completely understood so that was reassuring. Yesterday we celebrated his birthday together and we got a couple’s massage and then I took him to Casablanca. Then we went to this place that rents costumes and found our costumes for the Halloween party at Jacob’s. And we ended up carving pumpkins and watching American Horror Story. It turned out to be a good night and I am glad things are on the uphill slope again. I was really on the verge of taking a serious break with him. But I know he means well and as much as he scared me by reminding me of Eddie that night, I know in my heart he is WAY better than that.