Why can’t I close my eyes and walk away pretend that none of this was real? Why’d you make believe and hope and hold on to something that was dead in the beginning? I tried to tell you this wasn’t going to work, I told you I couldn’t be what you wanted me to be, I couldn’t be what you seen me to be but I was willing to bend until I broke to fit into your mold. I pushed my limits and my boundaries of my own mortality to get left behind, to be thrown away like yesterdays egg salad.
I could never forget the way you made me feel or your taste or your smell. I just can’t believe I let you convince me you were come back to me and that we’d make more memories. I got my hopes up so high for nothing. You called yourself my “bestie” but when I needed you, you left me. Now I’m sick and you’re gone.
Maybe I like playing the victim or maybe it’s because I care and hold to much hope in other people. The rise the fall it’s all so addictive all I wanted was to get lost in you.
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