April 2 - Authenticity in These Foolish Things

Hey, good morning! I have read my book for the day and today’s lesson was in authenticity.

It’s funny - I feel like I’m pretty authentic on the daily - just being my dorky self. But maybe I do tend to spill too many beans when I interact with others. I should probably keep more personal issues to my journal, huh? Ha.

I remember there was a time when I’d had my first heart-and-soul-crushing breakup and I couldn’t stop blabbing about it. I mean, I could NOT shut. Up. I know it was the only way I could process it, but MAN. I’m sure I was annoying as hell. Not only did I write about it constantly here (okay, in Opendiary, but it feels the same to me), but I’d tell anyone and everyone within earshot.

Was that being authentic? I suppose it was authentic in the way that it was the only thing I could think about at the time, so it was the only me I knew how to be.

But does authenticity also mean to be aware of your surroundings and to read the room and to know when to stop, wait, and listen before proceeding?

I suppose it’s being more like, yeah, I got through all of that and I learned my lesson and I know how to handle situations like that better. I’m much more self-aware and…more closed off now? Or maybe it’s more that I understand how and when to be vulnerable?

Is that authenticity? I don’t know! I’m a little confused about it now.

Anyway, that’s what’s on my mind this morning. It’s time to do my workout now and maybe ponder on this some more.

xo,
GS