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Preparing for the weekend :) - 10/21/2005

<font color="#00ccff">Today was a day, nothing out of the ordinary.</font>

<font color="#00ccff">I got up this morning, around 10:30am I think.  the last few days I’ve been waking up really early and then going back to sleep and waking up like early hour, roughly.  It’s strange, but i figure it’s way to early to get up and I don’t start work til late so why not.  I had my alrm set for 10:30am so I wouldn’t sleep past that anyway.  I think I had a weird sex dream last niht.  Can’t remember who it was with or where it was, but they say you have sex dreams when you’re craving affection, so maybe that’s it :) Guys have wet dreams when they dont jerk off for a long period of time - I only recently learned that!  How cool! :) lol</font>

<font color="#00ccff">It’s nearly 1am and I’m watching SBS.  Usually that this time on that channel there’s naked breasts bouncing around on the screen or two people going at it.  Occasionally I’ve even seen two gay guys having sex - it’s a very diverse channel.  Is that the word I’m looking for? Oh well.  The show that’s on at the moment has some pretty cute boys in it, so that’ll do me.  Might watch it for a while, then go jerk off to nifty or something.  Why not.</font>

<font color="#00ccff">I sent Luke a message this morning.  I figured ‘why not’ so I did.  I apologised for doing so, and told him I think of him all the time and hope he’s doing well.  I sent it and threw my phone in my bag cos I had to leave for work anyway, cos I wasn’t expecting a reply at all.  But he was nice and he did reply, as i checked my phone on my lunch break at work.  He said it was sweet of me to say that and he thinks of me too.  That’s nice.</font>

<font color="#00ccff">The more i think of getting back with him, the more the idea appeals to me.  Then I think maybe he doesn’t want to anymore and maybe I really shouldn’t.  But I told myself today that the pro’s outweigh the cons and I obviously really do still care about the guy heaps, and I could build it back up to love, but who knows.  I think I’m way too.. strange to be thinking like that.  After we broke up I had to re-evaluate what love was, and I’d thought he’d found a new boyfriend, but turns out nothing really happened there.  Either way, one day, I think I’d wanna give it another go with him, if the opportunity arose.  Maybe not right now, but maybe in future.  Who knows what will happen.  Either way we will have to be happy for one another.</font>

<font color="#00ccff">I’m going out this Saturday after work.  I’m really looking forward to it.  It’s gunna be different as I will be in straight clubs compared to the gay ones I’m used to.  I’m meeting up with some of workmates there and I intend to get really drunk.  I hope I do, cos I rarely do.  I’m sure Tash will look out for me, although she herself will probably be too trashed to lol.  Should be a lot of fun hopefully.  Going to RG’s, and I’m hoping Bill and Brett can make it too, cos I havent seen them in ages.  reminds me I gotta msg Edi and see if he can come out but I’m not sure if he’s 18 yet.</font>

<font color="#00ccff">I was thinking of going to the Hilary Duff concert cos it’s on a Sunday night and asking Merv if he wanted to go with, cos I know she’s his favourite singer.  I should ask Dan too, but since they broke up I’m not sure it’s a good idea, but apparently they still talk and stuff so it should be good.  Well I’ll ask anyway, hopefully it doesn’t sell out, and tickets only went on sale this week anyway.  I was trying to contemplate whether i wanted to go up to Toowoomba this weekend, but if I’m going out Saturday night I reckon I’ll probably still be way over the limit most of the day Sunday lol!  I’m hoping public transport is 24 hours this weekend too, apparently they brought it in this month.  Guess I’ll soon find out :)  It’s great in that way cos I now live right next to the train station.</font>

<font color="#00ccff">Well I guess I should get some sleep, so night night guys and girls :) Only two days of work to get through til the weekend! :)</font>

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“go jerk off to nifty” What is “nifty?”

I don’t think I have ever had a wet dream, of course I never had a problem “touching myself” either! :-) [USCGrad94] 10/20/2005 11:11:59 AM

^what he said :) [J HENRY] 10/20/2005 11:32:16 AM

yeah, ive never quite had a wet dream. i guess i always beat my dreams to the punch. [EternallyHopeful] 10/20/2005 12:12:01 PM

Cant say as though I have had a wet dream either, But I have had my share of sex dreams. Big hugs… [LilGayBoiBluEyes] 10/20/2005 12:39:26 PM

I’m so jealous you guys get 24 hour transport up there. Everything in Melbourne shuts down around midnight, the only thing that really stays open are clubs and McDonalds - but you need transport to get to them!

Oh SBS - it’s a porn channel disguised as community television. If only the ABC would show similar movies, then I’d feel better about paying taxes.

Catch you later :) [the_other_me] 10/20/2005 1:30:12 PM

Woo for getting drunk. I think I will Friday night because I haven’t in a while. I’ll be at a gay bar though. Watching a production of Rocky Horror. :) [SilverScorp83] 10/20/2005 1:43:26 PM

Have fun sweetie and be safe. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
~Rachel~ [tankerbrat8386] 10/20/2005 2:24:18 PM

RYN: We were dating before he became a stripper. it was an interesting transition, let me tell you. But, I’ve always made it a point to never squelch something he really wants to do. If we ever don’t work out, I don’t want him to have any regrets for not doing something becuase of me. In the beginning, he enjoyed it and would occasionally do “private shows” at home....but then, it just felt… [yellow_bull] 10/20/2005 2:29:45 PM

(cont.)…like the bar and didn’t want to think about all the nasty trolls (old guys who would ask repeatedly “How much do I get for a dollar?” or “Can a I reach in for change?” =) Anyway…I think he’s happier now that he’s out of it. But i can tell he does miss that sexual recognition. Sweet, Madonna’s “Hung Up” just came on! =) Have a great weekend! Duff in concert…=) [yellow_bull] 10/20/2005 2:31:18 PM

<font color="orange"> awww i hope things work out for you and luke :)
anddd have fun on the weekend!
xox
[[disco-lemonade]] 10/20/2005 2:35:23 PM

When you say nifty,your taling about the erotic stories site right? Because if you are, thats crazy…I read them too!!! lol, small world. Take care buddy! [C-Dub85] 10/20/2005 3:00:25 PM

humm wet dreams. i think girls can get them. :S lol. I have had a couple sex dreams though haha and those are fun. lol [Akourah Lilly] 10/20/2005 3:16:48 PM

Heyy Matt.

Glad that you found yourself some nice porn on TV… Wish I had it here.

I had a sex dream too… Knew who it was with, what happened, and I am craving affection.

Go have fun this weekend and tell me all about it!

Love ya,
-James [Beez] [p] 10/20/2005 4:46:37 PM

I couldn’t note your other entry from some reason, but I love those songs. Any Man of Mine is one of my favorite line-dancing songs. It’s great.
I think you and Luke need to have a mature face-to-face, no holding back, tell it like it is conversation. No more guessing games. [Rachel Erin] 10/20/2005 5:09:48 PM

Have fun :) [CollegeDude84] 10/20/2005 5:52:37 PM

You woke up at 1030am and that’s EARLY?!? Or did I miss read that? And what is Nifty?? Isn’t that like a cleaning product? Can you use that even?
[tisk] 10/20/2005 7:10:39 PM

Hope you have a great weekend out with your friends. Go to the concert and enjoy yourself.
Happy Friday. [pizzaguy184] 10/20/2005 9:29:13 PM

it’s easy to get back with people. i did it with the same guy three or four times before i figured out it was the wrong choice for me..... [LegallyGay80] 10/20/2005 9:53:07 PM

Yay for gettin drunk, do I sound like an alco or what???? Awww you gotta come up one weekend soon! I’m going out tonight, not to drink, just to dance…gettin drunk tomoz night I hope though. RYN: Yeah I just got to the point of cracking…Ah well at least I had valid reasons. Love ya xoxo [SinderellaX] 10/21/2005 4:25:08 AM

Aw! I have a crush on Hilary Duff. & that’s not just a song. I really do. She’s so cool.

I don’t like RGs - but it’s one of the better places in the Valley. Try Birdie Num Nums. That place is awesome. Though usually packed… [Ezra_Medic] 10/21/2005 7:09:36 AM

Hey man! How the hell are you? I hope life is great! Mine is fine. Anyway catch up with ya later. Just wanted to say hi!
-JJ [shrektrek] 10/21/2005 10:31:32 AM

lol im somewhat of a hilary duff fan myself. have fun this weekend! wish i could go see her in concert with you, that would be so fun! i think that its most definitely possible for you and luke to get back together. i hope and pray that it all works out wonderfully and that you’re happy either way. :~) hug your awesome! [PetiteAnge] 10/21/2005 4:54:09 PM

Sounds like a fun time…Be safe! [broken.wings.] 10/21/2005 7:25:17 PM

You are going to have soo much fun at that concert! I’m jealous. Hope things are getting better for you, I know its tough dealing with what has been put on your plate here lately, but it will work out, just give it time. You are an amazing guy, remember that always. Love Ya!!!

Huggs!!!

[GardenBoi] 10/21/2005 9:21:30 PM

that is good you are a christian, i understand about your the parent thing of gayness because my bro went through the same thing. he headed the wrong direction. and now they are suffercating me to be perfect it sucks big time. [Bladess8] 10/23/2005 9:52:33 PM

on your other entry about the songs i never heard butterfly but it sounds cool. it reminds me of my guy [Bladess8] 10/23/2005 9:57:19 PM

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