Twitter: emordnilap palindrome in Book One: The Not So Daily Briefs 2014

I just need to kvetch

I’m tired of the same thoughts circling over and over in my head. I complain, I get angry, I try to change things and get smacked down for it. I want to remember what passion is. I want to remember what it feels like to be wanted. I want to remember what it is like to have a relationship where physical contact isn’t seen as “something to be avoided.” I want to stop complaining about this issue. I want to stop feeling cheated. I was able to make it… save myself for the woman I marry. But now I’m 30… my wife throws me a pity-lay once in three years… and looks at me as though I were insane for wanting to kiss, make out, touch her. I’m tired of begging, nagging, feeling like a small child asking to go outside to play. I’m tired of feeling like “I’m lucky to have someone that puts up with me.” I want to be in a passionate relationship with mutual lust, mutual respect, mutual affection. That simply feels so… out of reach.

Last updated January 04, 2016