I have a dear friend who has the same first name as mine and the same middle name as mine as we are born 1 yr. and 3 days apart. She lives in Alaska right now and me here. She is ready to move back. This will be her last winter in Alaska. Can’t blame her since she is a beach girl like me. She is a cert. fitness trainer and me a CNA we should be able to come up with something to make a bizz run. I know in my heart that I can do it I did once before and I can do it again so there is no fear as far as that goes but with the 2 combinations and the retirement communities around here I know that we will be a success. I know that by this time next year things will be different. Nothing stays the same thank goodness.
I got alot done today actually. Laundry, swept the breezeway( taking plants out and reputting things back nicely) went out yes I did go out and bought some sweet pot. and baby carrots for the kids and then had to go again - damn - my forgetfullness and turned in my paper work for the agency. Tom. I will turn in the other. Cleaned the bathroom and did the kitchen more or less…I did the dishes but wanted to do the floors ~ another day. Enough is enough.
A new week starts tom. and oh the surprizes that wait ahead. Sharon called me again today which surprized me. She is a trapped victim yet again which has always been her history. We alllllll carry a history an so does she. She is always and will always be a victim. That is her role and she claims it - owns it and it’s hers. Here is what she wants to do… cook. Like Mom N Dad use to. Back in day. Home made chili with onions and such or a baked chicken with fresh mash potatoes and fresh veg. She wants to turn her $ which she earned BEFORE she met him into something that will secure her well being - BUT she can’t do that until he signs everything which I don’t understand....and she is scared. Who can blame her? She dosn’t know any better. He owns her basically. His anger is terrrible to put it gently. No he wouldn’t hurt her physically - just meantally which is just as bad. She is weak anyway. I gave her a few pointers…to say - ” I think - I feel” that way she isn’t using the word the U which points an invisible finger on the other person. Yes, he did help me but at what cost. The day my serpintine belt died on the freeway between here an tampa on the way to class that I couldn’t miss. It was horrible the way he raged on an on to me and here I am just a sister in law. Talk about ptss kickin in I was a wreck when the tow truck driver arrived. Here he thought some one died. No. It is just my brother in law thankyouverymuch. ugh. But Sharon has always been weak and she will always be. But I find it surprizing that she looks for me for wisdom. Mayby because I just don’t give a fuck anymore. Sometimes easier said than done.
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