Took the 3-hour drive today to Mom and Dad’s. I brought lunch for the whole family. There was a tenseness at the table, but I finally broached the subject again. It’s baby steps for now. I just hope there’s a little time before something dire happens.
Mom gets an MRI tomorrow (well, MRA - with contrast) of her head/neck/brain so the docs can see what’s going on in there and if she’s actually been having little strokes. I think she has.
My brother offered to drive mom and dad to the appointment. Another baby step! At first, Dad declined and my brother pressed (another step!), and Dad said okay and actually sounded relieved.
My brother gave me a look and I winked back, but not in a “cute” way. It was an acknowledgment.
After lunch, my dad asked me what else I wanted to accomplish and I told him I wanted to do some cleaning in their little apartment (attached to the house). He agreed, but told me that he wanted to show me how he “likes it done.” Fine.
I did it his way while he looked on for a little bit and then decided to lie down. The tiniest task exhausts him now.
Mom got up from a nap only to lie back down in her recliner while I kept cleaning.
They got up to walk me out to my car and to take a peek at it (my lease was about to expire, so I traded in Mini Pearl for a brand new model on Friday…I named her Chloe Car-dashian. She’s green and so, so cute).
Then the 3-hour drive home. Podcasts. Melancholy. I don’t feel super sad because I know this is life. I just want to be a source of comfort through all of this, and I don’t know if I’m doing the best job.
But it’s a new year and I started 75 Hard today. Yes, I also got two workouts in, photos, all my hydration, a couple of healthy meals and NO alcohol. And I read my 10 pages.
Tomorrow is back to work. I gotta turn on the heat at work. I let things slide over the holidays.
So much to do.
In addition to Mom and Dad, I have to take care of myself. I got notice today that I need to schedule my 2-year colonoscopy. Doc appointments, dentist, my eyes feel off.
Yes, so much.
Welcome, 2024. We haven’t even started strategizing my soulmate search!
So, so, so much to do.
GS
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