Derek and I Move Forward Monday, June 14, 2004
I thought I should bring this diary up to date.
Me and Derek met. Had a good time. We hung out last night, which was a bit odd. It was odd because I always go out with my friends to the bar, but instead I stayed home with Derek. It was nice but a bit of a let down. I mean he's nice and all, but the whole time I wanted to be out with my friends... However at the same time I was glad I was with him. We just watched movies and stuff, but half way through he fell asleep. So instead I watched movies alone.
It's nice that he feels comfortable to sleep here, but I still wished it could have been more. It's like when he is near I want him to be away... and when he is away I want him to be near!
I want to love him.. but it's so early in the relationship.. and I want him to want me.. but it's too early... and then I wonder if it's not going to work out... and then I wonder... what if it does?
Anyway.. I have to go now.
Her
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u sound EXACTLY like me!! i do the same thing--want him--then not....take care girlie.... ~~Brandy in Florida~~
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