july 25, 2012* in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'So.................it happened last Wed. and the Wed. before that. The.......circus........thing. The.um. schizophrenia. I haven't had a really bad one in weeks. Oh it happened over the weekend too. We're all in the living room and I turn to James and go "we could make them food" and he goes "no I can't" "no bc I'm........". it's happening, again. or it was rather.

As for recovery. I told him I'd try and eat 3 things a day. cause he's like 'even if you just eat strawberries every few hrs' or something about that. The other night I was at the store deciding what to have for dinner. that's become such a common thing for me now.

Um.

So, last Wed. while at the bar I had a flashback. I was on my way into the bar from the balcony and it hit me. the dream came back.