Why Am I Such A Nice Person? in Me Being Me

Revised: 03/17/2023 11:42 a.m.

  • March 17, 2023, 7 a.m.
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I try so hard to be the nice one and the one to listen and follow directions and the law. But yet there are others who think they don’t have to follow the law and listen to others. I am starting to think that I shouldn’t have to either. But yesterday I finally got a better understanding of how me living here is going to work out for the rest of the time I am here.
Like yesterday just out of spite I turned on the outside water and evedently water came pouring out all over the grass. I just laughed at myself. I figure I have control of the water so why the hell not. And when the landlady told me about it I just kind of smiled and laughed in my head and thought “Bitch” serves you right for treating me like shit. And I also asked why she won’t fix anything and this time she said she isn’t going to because she can’t afford it so then I told her not to fix anything. And she said where I live isn’t hers anymore which means I have to fix things. Which I am not going to so things will just get worse and this place won’t be livable anymore and she will loose all the income she gets from this place.
All I want is for things to get fixed so I can call this home and not a place where I just pay rent. I hate that feeling.
And yesterday I wrote an e-mail to the recycling people and told them that she is putting her dog shit into the organic and garbage bins and I am afriad it will start to smell and turn moldy. I did suggest to her that she bury it in the dirt in corns bags and she just laughed. Then I told the people if they can do something. So I am waiting on that. I also e-mailed the rental people and told them that she won’t fix anything anymore because she can’t afford to so i am waiting to see what they say. I also asked if someone can have a look at what needs to be done.
I am just tired of being tired and I want things at least maintained so I feel comfortable and that I am happy to call this home.
But then I made the mistake of trying to be nice to her and tell her how I feel but she just laughed at me and told me too bad. Nothing in here has really been fixed to the point there is no damage that can be seen.
I am going to have to move my big freezer so it’s not over the crack and find an extention cord because I am not going to risk my freezer being damaged because she is too cheap to fix the crack. And I can see the crack starting to look like crumbs at the endges of the crack and it’s getting wider on all sides and I am starting to worry. But she says as long as the ground is moving she isn’t going to fix it. But I think there is a way to stablize the ground and fix the crack but then again she is too cheap and too lazy to do it.
So I will just wait and wait and maybe hubby will get things fixed.
Yesaterday I thought if I was nice and actually asked why thiongs are noit getting fixed we could come to some sort of compermise but she said no and get this she also said where I live is not hers. So what does that mean? I wish she would make up her mind. Either this is her house or not whuch is it? And isn’t she suppose to fix things by law? I do know that things here need to be maitained but they are not.
I just want to get along and have some sort of communication and be happy. And I think some compermise is in order. I will keep on trying to be sival and to get things done and I won’t give up because I think people should get along and be happy where they are.

Onto something else....

Today I am going to be washing floors and cleaning the burners on my stove and changing the drip pans and cleaning the top of the stove because I am getting tired of looking at how dirty and greasy it looks. And I should really also sweep the floor before I wash it. And if I feel like it I will be cleaning the rest of the bathroom because it’s been a long while. The one part of the floors I am not going to wash is the wood floors because if I do it will just activate the mold and I don’t want to do that. So I don’t wash the wood floors but I do sweep them on occassion.
I wish I cared more about this place and make it as clean as possible but I just don’t see the point when things are not being fixed or maintained and they will only get worse as time goes on and there is no way I can be blamed for any of it.
I finally relaized why the water control in the vanity leaked and that is because the nut that was used was made of plastic and it cracked so that is not my fault. Who uses plastic parts when the metal parts are much better?
And evendently she is going to be installing a new program thing for the heat and she has to come down here to turn off the furnace and I won’t be letting her to do because I don’t want her here. But hubby say she can do it. So if he is here then she can but if not I won’t let her in here. I have also decided that anything reason she wants to come here hubby needs to be here or she won’t be comming in.
I have never had a landlord as bad as her and evry place I have been I always had things fixed no matter how small. And they never complained that they didn’t have enough rent from me so I am not sure why this one is being like this?

Onto something else....

I made fish last night and it turned out not too bad. I just used lemon pepper on it and we had French fries and california mied frozen vegetables and there was no left overs.
Tonight is left over friday so whatever is left over hubby will eat and I am not sure if I want to eat or not.
I am thinking that I should get the rest of the laundry done and the birthday presents wrapped and look to see if I have steak or a roast I can cut into steaks for my sons birthday dinner. And tomorrow I should make him a chocolate cake with icing. And he will take the left overs home with him.

Onto something else…
Well, it’s Friday and almost the weekend…
Do have a great day…
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave....

Last updated March 17, 2023

Zappel March 17, 2023

The garbage is the correct place for dog poop, the organics bin is not. Burying it is not a good idea. The "compostable" bags actually only compost in a high-temperature commercial facility, not in the ground or regular compost bin. Additionally, dog poop can contaminate soil and plants and can be an environmental hazard. So, garbage bin is the best place!

Jodie Zappel ⋅ March 17, 2023

Question? tehn why does the governemnt say different? But the best way to get rid of it is to flush it down the toilet....

Anaiss March 17, 2023

You are obsessed with the landlady and the things in your apartment that need to be fixed. It seems like it's all you think about, it makes you angry and you feel helpless and abused. I get that. But it's not healthy for you. You need distractions. You don't ever write about leaving the house. I know money is tight but surely you could get out to parks, or take walks, or enjoy free things that are available.

Jodie Anaiss ⋅ March 17, 2023

I am not much for the outdoors..never have been....
But what I am trying to do is try to solve this issue and so far I haven't done a very good job and I need to do better. I am thinking maybe it's time to actually clean this place then I will fel better about me...

Anaiss Jodie ⋅ March 17, 2023

Well I still think you need to get your mind busy with other things. Do a puzzle, do some crafts, read a book, binge watch some TV shows. You cannot just spend all day focused on the landlady. You know the serenity prayer - whether you believe in God or not, it's a good prayer for anyone. “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference.”

Jodie Anaiss ⋅ March 17, 2023

I love that poem..thank you for reminding me of it. And also there is another saying that I use very often and that is "Do I really want to die on this mountain" which means is this fight worth it and to tell you the truth I think for the most part it's worth it because she is breaking the law....I would never deny anyone not making sure things work or are dangerous like mold.

shakeal.22 November 15, 2023

You're a really good person! You try to keep the house clean. And I'd like to help you. I want to share Depositphotos where you will find tips on organizing space in the bathroom. I'm sure it will make the house even more cozy.

Jodie shakeal.22 ⋅ November 15, 2023

I would love to get all of this stuff but to re modle or put in things that she put in 9 years ago she won't let me take out. I would love to have cupboards that openeed wider and drawers that pulled out and a bigger closte but I can't because of the size of the rooms. But these are all greta ideas and I thank you.

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