My school finished on July 13th. We had a cute graduation ceremony for the kids to go on to first grade. Lots of hugs and kisses and saying goodbye to the kids. It was very bittersweet as my favorite kid will go to a new school next year.
I had to work for 2 more weeks after which was a lot of sitting around and a lot of meetings in Turkish which I could have understood of I didn't feel a nap was more important :) it was frustrating that they make the native English teachers go to these meetings as most of us don't speak Turkish! But one can't complain when they still pay you for summer. I've never been so happy to switch from a language school to a private school. I'm off work until August 16th and paid for it.
This summer has started off rough though. I found out my ex was killed in a car accident over a year ago and it really hit me hard. I hadn't spoken to him in over 4 years and his life was rough and it just makes me sad.
I spent one morning to get my money from work. My job is fairly close to my home but it's in a quiet secluded area with one bus. It took me more than 2 hours round trip and the account office almost didn't pay me because I didn't call them even though I said the Friday before I was coming Tuesday! I finally get home to deposit my cash at the ATM and the ATM takes my money and give my card back saying there was an error and my money was being retained. I wanted to cry and punch the machine. My rent was due in 3 days and all my bills automatically pay from that account. Plus I was running out of money. The bank said they will contact me but they haven't and it's been almost a week. Luckily my boyfriend lent me money.
Speaking of him. Things are rough. I just don't have patience for him anymore. We are constantly arguing and yelling and it's frustrating. We live seperately but he does spend the majority of the week at my place because I have a dog and can't leave her. We also have a cat and he's obsessed about it! He comes home from work hardly says anything to me and plays with his evil cat all evening. At least it keeps him away from the dog.
You see my dog was rescued and I believe she was abused. She had cuts on her chest and she would cower in fear when you tried to pet her. She has changed so much since May but she is far from being a 'normal' dog. She doesn't run around the house much or play with toys or balls. She gets excited when he or I come home but then goes back to her bed. Recently she's been running around with us at the park. It's a huuuge improvement for her! My boyfriend was so frustrated with her saying she's broken I don't like her why won't she play with me. So he was thrilled when I found a kitten that loves to run and play. He couldn't understand why the dog won't do these things with him. I just keep reminding him to give her time.
Today he requested that we get some space. I didn't even fight him on it even though I'm sure I'll get lonely. I don't have many friends in Istanbul now that I've changed my job everyone I knew lives on the other side of the city. I'm also socially awkward so meeting people is difficult. I've been trying to plan a holiday for us to enjoy the sun and sand and water he kept pushing it off and now plane tickets have doubled and he doesn't like the city we originally agreed on. It's so frustrating cause this holiday is supposed to be 2 weeks from now and he hasn't even asked for time off work or planned anything and now he wants time apart?!? I should just go somewhere alone!
I just hope he gets it figured out because I'm dying of boredom here! Sorry of this made no sense :) it's 4am here and I should be sleeping!
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