So, This is Happiness! [Friends Only Entry] Thursday, December 12, 2002
I had a very good day. I worked 14 hours today and yet I still had a good day. I met lots of nice people. Helped a lot of nice people. Talked to a lot of nice people. Worked with a lot of nice people. For the first time in a long time I walked out of work with a group of people. They all welcomed me. It was the first time I worked with people at my new job. I usually work alone... but not today! It was so nice. I think I am going to like it there. My life is good right now. Ever since I stopped hearing from Keith things have turned around. I am not wasting my time trying to make a scrub love me. I can't believe what happened to Keith. Either he finally showed me the real him, or he turned into a real scrub. No job, can't pay rent, jacked up credit, careless, thoughtless, and very selfish. He's nothing like what I met 2 years ago. There is definatly something the matter with him. If it's not depression, the it's pyscological. I have a hard time even looking at him now. Sometimes I wish there was something I could do to help him. However, he doesn't think there is anything wrong. So, what am I supposed to do? Try to help someone that obviously doesn't want help, or need it? No... Not this time. This time I am just helping me. It's my turn to be selfish. And damn it... I am going to enjoy it.
It's truly my turn to be happy. Sure, there may be no love in my life... but it doesn't matter. I have great people in my life that care about me. The people that just used me are gone.
I can't stop smiling. I am truly happy again. I actually have tears of joy in my eyes.
Thank you, God. You finally answered my prayers. Thank you... Thank you... Thank you!
Her
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so your happy thats good. 12/12/2002 9:41:35 PM
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