Goodbye Keith. Hello Beau! November 17, 2002
I can't but wonder when I got to be so lucky. I finally let Beau take me out on a date. He picked me up in his $38,000 Trail Blazer. I couldn't believe that. Then when he opened the passenger door for me, I was almost floored in shock. When I got into the vehical it was spottless. Smelled like Jasmin. Mmmmm. Then to my suprise I felt warmth all over and I just couldn't help but ask him, "Are these seats heated?" He just smiled and said "Yeah." I was so impressed. I had never been in a car with heated seats before. Especially a car that smelled like jasmin with heated seats that the man driving opens doors for me and treats me with all kinds of respect. Wow. Who would have known that there are men like that out there... that are so nice looking too. Check this out... He's tall, dark, thin, clean cut, dresses nice, and he smiles! Most guys I have dated had a problem with smiling. They always seemed to frown. Oh he's the complete package alright... He's got 60 credits in college and will be transfering soon to MSU. His parents are mega rich. They have a $500,000.00 home with two ponds in the back yard. His parents help run Generous Moters. That's all I know. I tell you what, I thought I had died and went to heaven last night. Here are the 2 and only two problems with this. #1 He's 22 years old. (five years younger) #2 He's black. (I am white) It's not that I am racist. Keith is black. So is Kumbi. However, after dating them I am scared to death that all black people are like them. I think that way because everyone of their friends and relatives are like the way they were... always cheating on their girlfriends, making up lies, sleeping with each other's friends girlfriends... I do not want to get mixed up with those kind of people again. I am sorry if I sound concieted, but I am NOT that kind of person... and when I started hanging around them I slowly started to be like them. I REFUSE to EVER become a cheater and a liar. I am better than that. This is why I stopped seeing Kumbi. By seeing him I was condoning his actions with Crystal. Crystal may have been pretty awful to me at McD's, but she doesn't deserve what Kumbi has done to her. No one does. That is why I will never see Kumbi again. Just like Kumbi himself said, "Shannon, you have class." Damn right I do. I pay my bills. I treat people with respect. I am smart. I am responsable. I work hard. I deserve the same back... and damn it, I refuse to have less than what I deserve.
So, now that Keith and Kumbi are out of my life I can start concentrating on better things. I will be back to college in the fall. I am taking out student loans and going full time until I graduate. Beau is taking a lot of the same courses as me because he is going into a simular field as me so we have a lot in common. I have to get these credit cards paid off first though. I have a job interview tomorrow so that is going to help. I know I can get this job.
Thank you, Beau, for making my night so wonderful. Thank you for letting me have one of my dreams come true. Life can be hard, but it has a lot of rewards.
Her
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