Anxiety/Sadness in Life Journal

Feeling a general cloud of sadness over me the past couple of days. Really tough. One moment it almost feels unbearable and the next I feel like I’m as happy as I can be. My sleep schedule is the worst it’s every been. Since mid November I’ve probably averaged 3-4 hours of sleep a day. Some days I just don’t sleep at all, staying up for 30-40 hours at a time. I’ve been trying to regulate it recently and I’ve done a fairly good job. I consistently wake up every night between 1:30-2 am and have trouble going back to bed. On the bright side, I’ve been waking up around 5-6am so I get a jumpstart on the day. I have anxiety induced dreams every night, I suspect it’s the result of emotional PTSD. I’ve been running into a lot of emotional triggers. Most of them mundane things: songs, locations, and activities. I’m really struggling but I’m trying my best.