Change in Diary of a Useless Lesbian

Things are changing, or rather I am changing. Definitely for the better but I must say it did take me by surprise, it’s almost like one day I just woke up and decided to be me again. To be confident, assertive, ready to take on the world and take down anyone who tries to stop me. I don’t where it has come from but maybe I don’t need to know why, just that it has happened and that I am now finally ready to be the woman I always dreamed I would be at this ripe old age of 26.
Change is inevitable in all aspects of life, and it can also be rather uncomfortable. I remember when my anxiety was really bad never wanting anything to change, even though I knew things needed to change in order to get better, the mere fear of it would make me shy away and hide. Never to be seen or heard by anyone about the trouble I was facing, in fear of the changes it could induce if people did find out.
And now here I am, grown. Matured, although albeit sill a bit of a childish streak at times, but I feel like I am seeing myself, others and the world in a completely different light.
See when you live in a world where you don’t see your own worth, you almost create this idea that, that makes everyone else better than you. They can think better, do better, live life how they want, say the right things, behave in the right way, wear the right clothes and hairstyles and have it all together.
But what I have come to learn over these last few weeks is that everyone is simply winging it. No one really knows what they are doing, they are just being themselves and it’s paying off for them and I think that’s rather beautiful.