Hello, so it is dark in the rabbit hole.
Wanting to get out but at the same time wanting to stay or even go deeper, what must I do? Do I ask for help? Must I do anything at all?
These are just a few questions I asked myself.
After my father passed on, I did not grieve, I stood up and took the reins of the family and tried my best to keep life going.
Was it hard? Hell yes and it still is.
I miss him every day.
I do my best every day and somehow it does not seem good enough.
I kept myself busy with work or rather drowned myself in work and found means to cope.
My personal life was falling apart, my physical and mental health was deteriorating but I kept pushing and pushing. Just so that I did not have to deal with any sort of heartbreak…
Last updated December 06, 2022