Primarily... in (W)hole

I just applied online this morning for a WHOLE bunch of open teaching positions in our school district. Pray for me. If you are the hoping/praying type in ANY way, please mention or think of me. :) I applied for: K and 2nd grade at Tik in NP, at Weller for a 3/4 split, kindergarten, or 4th grade class, a "Primary" position at UPark, K and 1st at Hunter Elem, 2nd and 3rd at Anne Wein, an Elementary primary(k-3) Social Studies teacher at Barnette Magnet, an unspecified "primary" position at Denali Elem, which is the school right around the corner from me and where Kasin goes- I would be SOOOO excited to work there, it is an AMAZING school and obviously it's convenient to me.

I didn't apply for positions at North Pole Elementary or Crawford out on Eielson AFB, because they're too far away... and I didn't apply for intermediate positions, either, but there were only a couple of them anyways. I so badly want a classroom. I have supplies and materials ready, I just need a class! I have all these lesson plan ideas, and several complete units for a range of grades. I have a Word Wall box set, I have a calendar set and posters, I have stickers and bulletin borders, I have an entire wardrobe. I have book boxes and supply baskets. I simply cannot explain how much I want this.

I also really badly NEED this. Ross has basically been refusing to pay rent, and we are drastically behind. We owe like $5k and I don't make anywhere NEAR enough money to start paying it off by babysitting. I am able to buy groceries and pay a couple of bills here and there. I feel like I'm finally caught up on the things I needed to get out of the way... applying for my teacher's certificate cost $125, I have two growing boys and a bunch of extra kids to feed most days... I need to replace the tires on my van, although really I could stand to just replace the van all together, I don't know that it'll live through another winter... I'm hoping to be able to replace it around dividend time (October) and maybe start paying off the repossessed car loan that I have with CU1. It would also be nice to have car insurance.

The boys and I also need to find somewhere else to live. I feel like we need to start eating organic/GMO free, because I think it might help Milo with his behavior issues, and it would help me with a myriad of health issues, and Kasin has really porked up recently. I buy a lot of organic fruits/veg as I can afford it, but we eat a lot of crap, too... ramen, Kraft Mac & Cheese, hot dogs (turkey dogs, at least!) and chips... I would just really like to be able to afford to do better than this for my kids. And god, do we ever need to move.

This could turn my whole life around... this could finally be the cloud that I've been reaching for, coming to take me away to my real life.