I have a few obsessions right now. None of them are good. Let me tell you about them.
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Cancer. Well, duh. I just went through a whole year of discovering cancer in my lower belly which had spread to my lymph nodes. How can I NOT be obsessed with cancer? The problem is, cancer will now be with me for the rest of my life, even if I NEVER get another cancer diagnosis. I have literal YEARS of oncology visits to come. Last week I had my annual cancer CT scan and tomorrow I will go to my oncologist to hear the results. I will either have ONE YEAR cancer free or I will hear the dreaded words. There is no in between. There is no “just a twinge” of cancer. You either have it or you don’t. Except when it’s a basal cell carcinoma on your right forearm, right? Then is just a “touch of the cancer”, right? I mean…what? I don’t really understand it all, but I know that tomorrow is a big day and I’m obsessing.
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Related to above, this list: List of Known and Probable Human Carcinogens. Guys. If you want to look at something that will drive you bonkers, check out the list. Maybe you already know this, but I didn’t know (until someone told me) that consuming alcoholic beverages is a known carcinogen…just as bad as SMOKING CIGARETTES!! Did you know this? Maybe I was the last person in the world to find out that my beloved bubbly causes freaking cancer. Even that age-old “one glass of red wine a day” suggestion was wrong??? I’ve know the alcohol thing for about a year now and that’s why I’ve cut way, way back on the intake. I’ve also stopped eating red meat, which is actually NOT on the “known carcinogen list” but on the “probable carcinogen list”. Hm. Still, I honestly think it’s best I do not eat red meat or any processed meat (KNOWN carcinogen) anymore. But after studying this list (obsessively), did you know things like drinking very HOT liquids is a probable carcinogen????? Did you know that working as a hairdresser or working the night shift is a PROBABLE CARCINOGEN?? Yes, I’m now assuming that even obsessing over this is a probable carcinogen. sigh
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Related to all of the above, MEDICAL INSURANCE. Of which I will run out if I don’t get a job before the end of this calendar year. The clock is ticking and living in America sucks sometimes. This is one of those times. I’m obsessing over the thought of not having insurance, but not enough to do anything about it yet because…
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The Job Interviews Continue. And they continue to drive me absolutely batty. Why oh whyyyyy can’t they just be simple and straightforward? The latest one is a company with a gig that fits me to a T! It’s a perfect job and when I was talking with the outside recruiter about the role, she told me that it was a remote position with regular trips to the company headquarters in Utah, likely monthly. I told her that was fine - I have no problem working remotely and traveling to an absolutely gorgeous part of the country! All fine and good, right? But later she told me that they actually want someone on-site for this role. Ughhhh. Really? Still, I wanted to her more and so I’ve had multiple video interviews all the way up to the CEO. And we got along famously! Love the dude! And they love me! So now, they are flying me to Utah, and WTF am I going to do? I neeeedddd a job and I nneeeeeddd insurance, but I do NOT want to move to Utah. I want to either work for them remotely and commute to Utah 1x/month like they said in the beginning or a I want a different job. And I need it all pretty quickly, right? So, now there’s another job. It’s local. And I’ve video interviewed with the hiring manager and things went well and I’m just waiting and waiting to hear back from them and the CLOCK KEEPS TICKING! I’M OBSESSING over this situation and I just need for all of this to be over and I need to be comfortably ensconced in a new job where I have the protection of medical insurance and a salary and all will be fine and good for at least a little while. Please! PLEASE!
And those are my current obsessions,
GS
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