Spinning in Life As I Know It - 2022

My head is absolutely spinning from all this training for the new job. I feel like I’m not doing very well with it. I’ve set ONE appointment and that was on my very first day and haven’t done shit since.

It doesnt help that I’m leaving voicemails all day long and not getting a chance to speak to people but when I do finally get a real person its either a wrong number or I completely blow it. I’m feeling a bit discouraged today.

So I decided to put on full makeup this morning, and a nice business casual polo shirt. Maybe if I look more professional I’ll feel more professional and that will come out in my voice. Or something.

I don’t know. Just not feeling very optimistic today. I’m doing training this morning then I have to go to my pain management doctor because my pain is definitely NOT being managed right now. Then when I get home I’m going to work for 3 or 4 hours to make up for it. Maybe working an evening shift will get me a chance to actually speak to a few more people.

I literally have to speak to 20 actual homeowners and give the pitch to make 1 appointment. But even speaking to that many during the day has been proving a futile effort. I make generally 4-6 contacts/day (meaning I speak to that many homeowners on my list). And usually blow it. I’m not pressing through the script hard enough, or when I do I’m getting tongue tied, or they ask me a question I’m not prepared for. It’s been frustrating this week.

Then to top it off, Pat got a bit irritated with me last night. I was really hyper and I had gotten a bath, which to him means I’m more then likely going to be in the mood for sex. I wasn’t. Which is pretty typical. We’ve literally made love twice since getting back from the honeymoon. Sex just isn’t a priority for me, and it’s extremely rare when I’m actually in the mood mentally or even feel desire physically. I don’t know if this is a perimenopause thing or what. Low sex drive. But its frustrating him that I never want to. So he woke up in a bit of a mood this morning which is feeding into my own mood. Hopefully after I’ve gotten out of the house for a little while I can clear my head and get down to business and set some appointments this evening.

Blah.