Funemp. Wk #11/#TMIFiles in These Foolish Things

  • May 17, 2022, 4:07 a.m.
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Holy shit. I’m into Week 11 of unemployment and I’m just now starting to feel like I need to buckle down and get serious about finding a new job. Truth be told, I have loooooved the down time and just hanging out in the Treehouse. It’s been a dream. But my severance pay runs out at the end of this month and then I’ll really need to dig my heels in and buckle down and hustle and muster some grit and all of the sayings that are reserved for successful people in the world.

I’m almost there - I really am! The days are starting to blend together now.

The Serious Company has offered me a contract position to work on a project with their company, but I can’t seem to make the numbers work, and if I take it, I’ll lose my unemployment benefits AND I’ve never really done contract work, so I honestly don’t know how to do it? Is it as simple as setting up an invoicing system and paying a quarterly tax? I just can’t seem to muster the energy to figure it all out when I just need a full time gig with decent insurance, ya know?

I don’t really have a “fun day” field trip scheduled this week - except I’m going to meet a former work colleague for lunch on Wednesday and I might do a kind of shopping excursion and buy nothing (because I don’t need to be spending money on anything except groceries, dog food and gas - oh and my rent that will be going up $300/month come July!! That’s another entry…).

I’ve now met several people from my former employer either at a lunch or a happy hour and it seems that everyone is jumping ship except for the execs. I’ve found out a lot of interesting things too that kind of boil my blood, but not really. Nothing really surprises me anymore. Still there are little things like the fact that the execs got a DOUBLE bonus last year and shit like that. I’m not going to get into the nitty gritty of those assholes, but it just hits me funny.

And the whole marketing/PD teams have left. I don’t know what’s going on with the part of the business that merged with my former company. It was the part that squeezed me out - nobody I talk with seems to know what’s going on with that. And I understand that there are two people from that other company who replaced me, so…hm.

Oh well.

In #TMIFiles news, I had some genetic testing done last week at the recommendation of my oncologist. As I understand it, this type of testing is normally done at the beginning of a cancer diagnosis, but I’m glad I got this testing done now instead of back then. “Back then” being the time of diagnosis when I was literally internally screaming at myself to wake up from this horrifying nightmare. I never would have been able to patiently talk with a genetic counselor let alone spit in that little vial they give you.

So, before one gets genetic testing done, you have to look back over your family medical history. Now, I didn’t realize this because nobody in my family made much of a big deal of it, but my father’s sister died of pancreatic cancer (!!). All this time, I’ve been saying that my family has NO history of cancer and then BOOM.

Why was this frightening discovery not really shared with me? Well, I think it was because my aunt lived such a good, long life that nobody considered the cancer as the thing that got her? I mean, she was 87 when she died, and it seems like when you’re that age something is just going to take you down, right? I mean, yes, I’m generalizing, but it seems like that’s what my family did too - they just generalized the cancer and chalked her death up to “old age”.

The reason why I’m spending so much time/words writing about my aunt’s pancreatic cancer is because now there’s a history of cancer, and in particular, PANCREATIC cancer (yikes!!) in my family, so the genetic counselor paid a LOT of attention to that fact.

I will find out in about three weeks if I have wonky genes, mutations, and a higher risk for more cancer or recurrence.


Anyway, after the counseling and the spitting into a vial (which was a million times better/easier than giving a blood sample, by the way), I saw a nurse navigator who was just lovely. Again, this stuff is normally done at the beginning of the cancer “experience”, so some of it was sort of like, wow…I wish I’d known you provide this service, but it was still great to talk with this nurse.
We talked about my cancer experience and she told me about all of the services that my oncology center provides. Things like getting free rides to treatments, emotional support for patients and caregivers, financial resources, etc.

And I told her about the things that I used to help me get through my treatment (journaling, therapy, etc.) and she mentioned that July is Cancer Survivors Month) and that she’d love to have me involved in some part of that, and I was super happy about that. Possibly speak at an event or maybe read an entry or two, hahah! We’ll see. But stay tuned.

Last night I wanted to watch the lunar eclipse. Did anyone see it? It was too cloudy here to get a view of anything in the night sky, so I watched a little of it on social media until I couldn’t take it anymore. And then I saw something on an astrologer’s page saying that you might not want to get out and soak in the full moonlight anyway because something about this particular full moon and the eclipse might be worth staying under the covers during the event.

I don’t know - I’m not super big into astrology, but I find it fascinating. Wish that the stars could have predicted all of my shit…and maybe they did and I just didn’t see it?

Oh well.

Anyway, lastly, I heard a podcast about #vanlife on the New York Times podcast and thought about The Wanderer when I heard it, so I sent the link to him via the Tinder app. He wrote me back with a little joke about living in a van down by the river and hahah, but there was no mention about meeting again. Sadly, or maybe not, I’m not into the thought of seeing him again, so there’s that.

I desperately need something to get excited about again. I think I’m just about ready!

Until then,

Athena May 17, 2022

Being a contractor is as simple as sending an invoice, yes. You’ll want to pay taxes, sure. There’s very very little to figure out.

colder May 17, 2022

Good luck with whatever comes next! I hope a good job lands in your lap soon. Really been cheering for one of them to work out for you.

bobbi01 May 17, 2022

I think it would be fantastic for you to share your stories.

Complicated Disaster May 17, 2022

Normally you would expect to get paid a higher daily rate as a contractor than a full time employee. I set up a company for contacting but there's no real need to. Just send invoices and past your taxes.
Sounds like your old company is getting ready to fail!

Ginger Snap Complicated Disaster ⋅ May 17, 2022

Yeah, that's the thing - what this company is offering is far, far below what my "normal" salary was because he doesn't think there's enough work on some weeks. And the problem with all of that is, if I take this contract then I can't supplement with unemployment insurance. I'd need to take on several contract roles to make this work and there aren't several contract positions for me out there.

Complicated Disaster Ginger Snap ⋅ May 17, 2022

Isn't the idea that he would take you on at contractor rates during the weeks when there is work and not take you on during the weeks when there isn't - thus allowing you to claim unemployment?

Ginger Snap Complicated Disaster ⋅ May 17, 2022

Nope. He wants me for like 6 weeks in a row and said it's a "hurry up and wait" thing and he can't tell me when those lulls will be. I don't feel like this is worth it - except that it could potentially lead to a full time gig.

Complicated Disaster Ginger Snap ⋅ May 17, 2022

Hmm. But a full time gig at such low rates? xx

Ginger Snap Complicated Disaster ⋅ May 17, 2022

No. The full time gig would not be contract. It should be a totally different position that would include this part as a part of the role. I suppose this is like a tryout to see if there can be traction...

Complicated Disaster Ginger Snap ⋅ May 17, 2022

OIC. So then I guess the question is whether the prospect of this loss making "tryout" period is worth it? xx

Elaine Benes May 17, 2022

Why didn’t you get the genetic testing at the beginning of everything?

Ginger Snap Elaine Benes ⋅ May 17, 2022

Not sure? I think my medical team was in a hurry to start all of the treatments and just power through that somehow this was missed? My oncologist told me that a lot of times people don't even want the testing (???) because it's controversial and starts issues with family members. And the counselor was even very careful about the way he asked me questions and made absolutely sure that I wanted to get my sample analyzed. It was all very curious.

Florentine May 17, 2022

Yeah, no. Don’t open up the contract can of worms! Not worth it. It’s not difficult, but it is not set up to benefit the contractor. If you’re goal is full time, full benefits, then concentrate on that and don’t get bogged down with making a little money through contracting work.

Ginger Snap Florentine ⋅ May 17, 2022

I know. At this rate it feels like a can of worms. And yes, my goal is full time, full benefits.

Lux Lunae May 17, 2022

Contracting is usually good for those that have a spouse that has full time benefits that they can add you to. Without that cushion I wouldn't even consider contract work at all.

WhatDreamsMayCome May 17, 2022

Wherever you land, I'm sure it will be on your feet. (May some excitement be included!) ;-)

Sunny Baudelaire May 18, 2022

It looks like you’ve already gotten some good info about contracting, so I’ll just chime in to add that you do get walloped with taxes (b/c you’re essentially paying your own share plus the share that your employer would pay if they’d hired you formally) so make sure if you do it you raise your hourly rate accordingly. Just in case you find yourself considering doing it somewhere else while you’re full-time job hunting.

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