~So I think I've met someone... Maybe the one? I don't know. But all I know is that I have not felt anything for anyone romantically in a really long time and I'm starting to feel again. Its such a weird and challenging feeling actually. Its just become so foreign to me that it totally took me by surprise. I would not take it away though. I really like where things are going in my life currently. Its just so different and not what I expected it to be. And its so true, when you aren't looking for someone, that's when you find him.
~So we have been spending quite a bit of time together lately, and I'm leaving for Las Vegas tomorrow and i think that this trip is coming at a perfect time. I'm afraid that I'll get too attached and then he will just leave, or get bored with me. I want to see how things are after being apart for the next 4 days. I want it all to work out, but I know from experience that sometimes (well in my life) things just don't work out the way that you want them to... And I don't want to get my heart crushed into a million pieces right now. I was finally starting to be ok with myself and the way that things were. I don't want to blow all the hard work I had to go through to get to that point in my life. Nope I need to stay strong and remember that in the end I'm the only one here and I have to look out for me and do what is best for me.
~All I've got to say is that this could get dangerous really quickly... Wish me luck...
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