Big Updates on Various in These Foolish Things

I’m still working on my End of Chemo story. It appears I got sidetracked by life. I suppose I should update on various:

Cancer: because this is the biggest thing in my life going on right now. I have my first post-chemo CT scan tomorrow. Then I won’t get back with the oncologist to discuss my results until a WEEK later. It just seems like an awful long time, but I will try not to stress out about it too much. We in the cancer community (ha, that sounds funny) call it #scanxiety. It’s a real thing. I’m sure I’ll experience it for a long, long time.

The State of My Body: I feel like I’ve aged 10+ years since diagnosis. And I bet my body truly has aged at least that much just due to the beating it’s taken. I’ve lost and gained back 10 lbs since surgery in February. I let myself eat what my body was craving during chemo (which was not always the healthiest choice), and I slacked on exercise even though I tried. Even my walking - my favorite thing in the world - suffered. I need a new plan that will help me get back into feeling healthy. I’m almost over that chemo slump where I feel meh every day…starting to feel better and better, though the fog and fatigue are still there. I hope they lift soon.

Love Life: Non-existent. Like, not even a nibble. After The Cyclist I just felt like I had zero energy to even try. And then the flirty Donut Cowboy being married was kinda the kicker that just had me throwing in the towel. But I think part of my State of My Life Address (coming soon) should include a plan for getting back out there in some form. Will think about this.

Social Life: Also leaves a lot to be desired. I’m still very concerned about the covid and keeping safe, but I’m also very tired of staying at home. Had a tiny get-together with Maria and Best Bud at my place on Saturday and that was soooooo nice - we drank Veuve Clicquot Rose and some other bubbles, I made a vegan charcuterie board and we grazed and talked and talked and talked. Granted, I couldn’t get a word in edgewise with those two and actually felt myself getting annoyed because those two have MASSIVE personalities, but then I leaned into it and got more into it and it was the best evening I’ve had in a long time. But I want to get OUT too.

Work: Stress, yes. But then, I’m just tired of stressing about it. I have started dipping my toe back out there, but I almost don’t have the energy for a full-on search. Yes, I need the insurance, so I need to keep working, but I’m tired of thinking so hard about this and letting it get to me. Plus, I have so much going on with work now I’ve been super-duper busy lately. How to get a new job when your buried well over your head with your current job? And doctor visits?

The Treehouse: The thing that probably gives me the most joy right now. I love my place. I still have some finishing touches and some organizing to do, but I absolutely can’t wait to get home from work every evening so I can just relax in my little treehouse. Still need to do decorating in both of the bathrooms - my main bathroom is going to be all about luxury, sparkle and shine and my guest bath is a tropical paradise. And my bedroom needs decor as well. I finally got my dresser so I organized that and have my closet nearly done, but I need artwork for the walls and I think a nice, big floor mirror. Bottom line is, the Treehouse has been the best thing that’s happened all year.

Vacation: All I ever wanted! My birthday is coming up and I want to take a small road trip and I have a place in mind - now all I need to do is to confirm the dates. My effing licensing partner has said they want to have a licensee summit sometime before the end of October but haven’t given us a date yet. How am I supposed to plan my little vacay? Anyway, I may end up doing a little solo spa vacation for a couple of days. Stay tuned for that. But I also have a BIG bucket list idea for next year around this time… I want to go here to see the Aurora Borealis!!! And I want to stay in an igloo!. Who wants to go with me???

So…that’s it for now. I need to get back to work. I owe myself the following:

• Finish the End of Chemo story
• My State of My Life Address
• The rest of my Bucket List!

See you soon-ish!
GS