Odds ends in Riverdale

Odds and Ends

Friends, people can't live w them, can't live without them unfortunately.

So I'm happy in some ways to be in contact regularly lately with some old school friends but I am also kind of over it a bit.

For instance I was texting my friend last night about being upset about it being my dad's bday tomm and how it triggers me and stuff. She was supportive of me than I asked her afterwards how she's doing and she sent a text that at the time I thought she meant for someone else. About her going to the hospital and how shed pick me up if she could?which I assumed was for someone else because I know that she would never drive into the city to pick me up. Than I kind of babbled on again about me. Than no response so I said good night than? And she sent me a text later on saying usually when people say such and such people usually ask them what for.( referring to her text she sent back to me) about her going to the hospital. I said I didn't think the text was for me than she starts freaking out a bit but I'm not taking the bait with this one. I'm sick and tired of her trying to start fights w me over the pettiest shit really. I have too much on my plate to waste my energy on that. So we are ok now but I feel she is probably harbouring a grudge possibly..that's why I really hate texting. Things get misconstrued and it's just such a wimpy way of commicating. I believe she feels she can freak out on text message. Be a "text message" warrior like many do. But on the phone and real life she'd choose her words more carefully I know....

So I mean it's cool to have old friends to talk to and catch up with bit in the end, you realize why u aren't that close anymore. Different paths different maturity levels and communication skills.

The weirdest thing happened today. I had just woke up and all of a sudden my phone starts typing on it's on. It goes into Facebook under the check in location services part and types aaaaaaaa-"my address" in my status part. So weird. Really makes me believe that my phone is being hacked or traced either that or possessed. My ex said a month ago that he has gps on my phone.... Which I am not sure if I believe. Because on one hand he accurately said that I was in the area when I had been the day before but maybe that's just me trying to make that fit I don't know. I try to turn off my gps option on my phone as much as possible when I can but some apps I use need to have that on. Anyways it scared the shit out of me.

George the spider came out again!! I thought I had killed him!!'but he lives on!!! So I tried again this time he was chilling in my living room and actually made a fucking web in the corner of my living room! I stopped that in his tracks quick enough. He don't pay the rent!

So I might be going back Into another program in June to prepare me to go back to school. So hopefully that works out. It's a paid program and apparently afterwards they give you a years free of education at the college.

I'm talking to this guy who I used to talk to two years ago. We met online and always talked on the phone but I never met him because he was on house arrest. Anyways one day he cut me off and really hurt me. Well he came around and explained himself and apologized. I prolly shouldn't talk to him again but I connect with him deeply and he seems to be the only one who really listens to me and cares lately. He's going back to jail to serve his sentence again in a month. So I may meet him now before he goes in and I mean really I don't have to worry about him leaving me I guess lol.

I'm also talking to the guy I met after that other scrub kicked me out. It's funny how things work I mean I get kicked out if that guys house and immediately meet someone new. I am lucky in some ways that I find it pretty easy to meet someone new that I can connect w and am attracted to on some level. It eases the lonliness at times. He's cute but younger than me. Lately I've been with a lot of younger guys. Makes me feel like a "cougar" but I think I am more of a "Puma"at this point. Lol

Anyways gtg. Ciao