It has gotten back the past 48 hours.
Last evening it was the worst.
We went out for dinner with friends. Of course I drove and I put fuel in the truck.
During dinner she throws it in my face about spending all my time on Facebook, belittling me in front of my friends. I will admit I am on Facebook a lot, but there I find someone that at least is kind, not biting and mad about everything.
Once we were done eating I set about heading home on a different route, a senic route about town to enjoy the beautiful sunset and the skyline of the City.
I was promptly bitched about why I chose this direction, that my employer does not pay for our fuel and it went on. I drove in silence, humiliated in front of our guests.
I had taken today off to prepare a feast, on short notice, but this morning I get an email from her saying that I will probably spend the weekend on my bike, another jab at me about my Harley and my love of riding, even if it is only in town. I wrote back, since this seems to be her prefered method of communication for the weekend and said the event was off, I waited to late to invite people and a lot of them cannot make it. No written response yet.
When I showered this morning I cut off my long beard. I had let the gotee section get very long, I was able to split into two sections and have it wrapped at RenFaire. But she has been bitching about it since I started it. Maybe I was wrong as it was in the style of a "Biker" look I was going for. I trimmed the sides down to just a buzz and even cut my mustache back to were my lips are visible.
I just went in her office to help her clean the windows and she did not notice.
I even had on a long t-shirt and a thong, and she never noticed.
Why does she get upset at me for spending time online, Facebook or other wise if she does not notice me anyother time?
EDIT*
4:15pm, she is not done with work, has temporarily logged out of work. She is now in bed asleep. I am not going to wake her, I will let her sleep as long as she likes. Why she does not stick to her work, complete the tasks and then log off so we can do things or spend time together.
I rode my Harley in to town to go to the pharmacy for my meds. The lady at the counter liked the styling of my beard. She noticed right away, were as I had to ask Deb what she thought about it.
This is going to be a long fucked up weekend.
And I question why was she so intent upon cleaning the windows in her office instead of doing her work? She works untill 5:00pm or later every day. Stay focused, complete her tasks and we can hang out together. But she always does things to drag her work hours into our supposed time. She will even take a nap at med day and work late into the evening.
Again, the feeling of being out of place, not wanted or noticed has returned.
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