I just need a place to babble about this and this is the best place to babble, and ive been thinking about this for a while, and TBH its probably still in flux, but i’m like 80% sure about this.
The idea of sex and all forms of it just dont do anything for me anymore. I’ve never been a lewd or perverse person, and maybe its the fact I haven’t had anything sexual in oh goodness I cant remember, since 2018? 2017? But the thoughts just..... dont excite me as much as they used to. I still like admiring pretty women in various stages of dress and undress, but I dunno. I just dont feel excited anymore when it comes to those thoughts. Honestly I’ve felt like this for a long time, even since 2013.. just.. felt nothing or anything. I know the term is asexual, and that is how i feel most of the time. Could it be the fact that I have had sex maybe once or twice since 2013? Maybe.. I dunno. I just dont know. I really dont feel anything when it comes to sex. (I’m not turning into one of those incel idiots that deserve to be yeeted into a black hole don’t worry)
I just...... dont feel that way 8 times out of 10.
On a scale of 1-10 i’m a 4. So i’m normal.