Nope. in These Foolish Things
- June 24, 2021, 9:12 a.m.
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Nope. I don’t like that video I posted yesterday. I tried to use it to help me sleep last night and some of the “bongs” on the bowls were jarring and kept me awake! I think I need something different like a guided meditation or something to concentrate on.
Nope. I had a couple of moments with the Cyclist over the last couple of days. I thiiiink he might have a little drama up his sleeves, and I am NOT going to accept that at all. We have a lunch date planned today and I’m going to broach the subject. I’ve been very direct from the get-go. I am literally trying to stay ALIVE here. I have NO bandwidth for drama, passive-aggressiveness or “joking” mimicry. That will not fly with me. There’s some insecurity there that really surprises me. He’s a C-level executive, for goodness sake. I’ll report back later.
Nope. I don’t have a great attitude every day. I’m not “brave” and I’m not always “strong” and I can’t always have a powerful stance. I’m doing the best that I can under the circumstances. I have chemo brain and chemo body and some days I’m surprised by how great I feel and other days are really, really weird. I will get through, but there are bumps along this rollercoaster ride.
GS
Firebabe ⋅ June 24, 2021
You might be surprised at the level of insecurity MANY C-level executives have. I saw a few in my time at Big Blue that made me think that they must have incriminating photos of someone, somewhere, because how else did they get to that level within the company? I'm sad to hear that the shine is rubbing off the Cyclist so soon. Agree with you though - you have no room for drama!
Ginger Snap Firebabe ⋅ June 25, 2021
We talked. It was a good talk.
At Last ⋅ June 24, 2021
You are brave and strong. Maybe some days more than others. But you are. And you don’t have to have a powerful stance if you don’t feel like it. And yes. . .NO DRAMA.
Ginger Snap At Last ⋅ June 25, 2021
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WhatDreamsMayCome ⋅ June 24, 2021
Keep your standards.
Feed your strengths.
Allow your weaknesses.
Stay brave always.
Ginger Snap WhatDreamsMayCome ⋅ June 24, 2021
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Deleted user ⋅ June 24, 2021
Have you tried ASMR videos? They have them with just sounds, or with people whispering or speaking softly. It might look a little weird in public, but there are some that just looks like you're taking an online class, and if you have a headset on, no one else will hear it anyway. I like the French Whisperer, who also has things on the Calm app. He doesn't give me the "tingles," but dang, I sure have learned a lot of history, mythology, and art!
A number of them have meditation videos, encouragement videos, and just nice chit-chat videos like a show-and-tell.
Ginger Snap Deleted user ⋅ June 25, 2021
Good stuff! I’m grateful for technology. You can find pretty much anything out there. Thank you for your suggestions 💗
Athena ⋅ June 24, 2021
No weird gongs. Nobody else's drama. No fake bravery. No apologies. You're human and that is A++.
Ginger Snap Athena ⋅ June 25, 2021
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Marg ⋅ June 24, 2021
Of course there are and probably very big bumps at that! But that will make the levelling out all the better when it surprises you :) And I hope you're very wrong about the cyclist in the nicest way possible!
Ginger Snap Marg ⋅ June 25, 2021
Me too! We talked and it was good 💗
Marg Ginger Snap ⋅ June 25, 2021
Good to hear!
Complicated Disaster ⋅ June 24, 2021
I didn't like the video either but I didn't say anything in case you did! 🤣🤣🤣
And ohhhhh. I hope the Cyclist isn't going to be a bust!
Xx
Ginger Snap Complicated Disaster ⋅ June 25, 2021
Haha! Please always tell me these things! 🤣
a girl thinking ⋅ June 24, 2021
try searching for healing frequency music. they have it for sleep and all kinds of things.
Ginger Snap a girl thinking ⋅ June 25, 2021
I found a couple!!
a girl thinking Ginger Snap ⋅ June 26, 2021
Yay!
a girl thinking Ginger Snap ⋅ July 07, 2021
Yay!
Gangleri ⋅ June 24, 2021
Have you tried some lo-fi music? It tends to be soft and quiet in the background kinda thing that you can have there to just take up a little bit of brain space to calm everything else down.
Or something like this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZPoqNeR3_UA
Ginger Snap Gangleri ⋅ June 25, 2021
That’s kind of hilarious, but actually really soothing!
Gangleri Ginger Snap ⋅ June 25, 2021
So ridiculous it works, right?
echopod ⋅ June 24, 2021
One of the most insecure people I’ve met was a c-level guy. Oof. No good on the drama.
You don’t have to be anything but still here! Glad for that.
Ginger Snap echopod ⋅ June 25, 2021
I hope I nipped the drama.
And thank you 💗
Sunny Baudelaire ⋅ June 25, 2021
I have a couple of meditation recommendations, if you want to check them out.
The Balance app for iPhone puts together a personalized meditation program for you, and they’re giving out the first year of membership for free right now to help people deal with their stress. (You just have to remember to cancel it in a year or it’ll bill you $50 for the following year.) I’ve been using that and I like it.
There’s also a guy on YouTube named Jason Stephenson who has tons of difference meditations. Some are guided, and some are just music or alpha/beta/theta waves or whatever they are. He has a really relaxing voice with an Aussie accent. I really love his wind down before sleep ones.
I’m really sorry that you’re going through all this. 💜
Ginger Snap Sunny Baudelaire ⋅ June 25, 2021
Oh my gosh, Sunny. Thank you for these recommendations. I really appreciate them! Looking up Jason Stephenson now...
Jinn ⋅ June 25, 2021
Hugs! If you did not have times when you felt discouraged, sad or frustrated then you would not be human . IMO . ❤️
plushcreep ⋅ June 26, 2021
Uh-oh. Hopefully the Cyclist drama doesn't turn into a deal-breaker. At the same time, you HAVE to look out for yourself first.