I got ahead of my work today (WOW! Look at me go!) so I thought I’d just pop on and say hello and that I’m feeling pretty good after a few days of the bluhs. I wish I could describe how this chemotherapy feels, but truly, there’s nothing like it in the world. Only people who’ve been through this would understand.
And I’m so, so grateful for those who understand and can relate and even walk me through. Did you know that there’s even someone on PB who’s been through this before? Of course, I will honor their privacy, but I will also say that I’m eternally thankful for their private messages. They help. A lot. No two people are alike - especially when it comes to cancer and chemo…literally every treatment is unique to the patient, but this person has given me insights that I’d have never known.
Today, someone in my FB group posted while they were getting their chemo treatment and said that they were so grateful for this medicine and the GOOD that it will eventually do for their body and their life. I just thought to myself, wow…this person is being grateful for going through this treatment - this treatment that I equate to a long, drawn out jetlag and a rough days-long hangover. I wonder if I try an outlook like hers that my medicine might go down easier.
We’ll see how that goes. I’m looking for a 2.5 hour meditation that I can do during my next infusion in the hopes that I can make it through the icing protocol easier than last time. I found this one that’s supposed to be good for cleansing the endocrine system and especially the lower abdomen, and it’s over 2 hours of simply meditational sounds:
I’d like to think that this will work better than the throbbing dance music and hip hop I rocked back and forth to in my last treatment. Haha! I’m sure I looked like a mental patient.
I do think I should try it first while lying in bed and not getting treatment because I read some of the comments on youtube and people are saying that they felt a lot of sensations while/after listening to the video. Maybe tonight I’ll put it on as I go to bed and see how it works for me.
Wouldn’t it be amazing to be able to be grateful and feel okay during treatment?
OK. I better get going. I still have a couple of meetings left today and I need to prep. Just wanted to post those thoughts and add that video so I can reference it later.