Trying... in General musings

Trying to pull myself together...trying to appreciate hub...trying to focus on horrible things F has done to me...even this last time, little things like, when he was out and the mail truck passed. I told him when he got back that he had no mail, and his response was, "You looked in my mailbox, you nosy bitch?" Not earth shattering...but...just a sign of the general disrespect, even when he was bending over backwards to convince me he'd "changed"...