Bombarded in These Foolish Things

  • March 11, 2021, 4:50 p.m.
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There are SO many resources for cancer. Like, so many things that my head is spinning. I just got off the phone a little while ago with a nurse patient advocate (I think that’s what she called herself?) from the hospital where I had my surgery and she was super kind and knowledgeable and wants to email me about a million resources that I can use while I’m going through treatment.

I know I’m a little bit in denial and that’s what keeps me from curling up into a little ball and melting to the ground in a puddle, but FUCK. It’s all soooooo much. What the hell? How will I navigate this?

I do like that there’s a tool that I might be able to use to help the friends who want to help me. Like, there’s a scheduling thing that I can put in requests if people want to bring food or help with a ride or whatever, and I have SO many people asking how they can help and right now I just don’t even know what to tell them. Whatever this tool is might help because I can set it up for the future and schedule things like food or supplies that I might want right after chemo. Things like that.

But I don’t even KNOW how this is going to go, you know?

How do people even do this? I mean, I know…you just DO IT. But wow.

Did I tell you that I talked to SexyPants? I needed to tell him the string-in-the-butt story because he has a string-in-the-dick story (from a kidney stone surgery) that’s kind of weirdly similar and I needed some levity and he is the only person who would understand.

I’d forgotten that his dad died from colon cancer so when I started telling the story I just kind of matter-of-fact blurted out that little fact and he got super, super emotional and…yeah.

I’m glad I’m at work this week - even though there’s stupid shit still happening, I can’t imagine what I’d be like if I were just sitting at home waiting to start chemo. I need this. Plus, some girls at the office want me to go to an outdoor patio little happy hour and I haven’t done a happy hour in ten thousand years, so…I’m going to do it. And I’m going to like it!

I’m grateful for today and for pushy co-workers who want to get me out before the shit hits. Which is funny because, didn’t I just have surgery?? Wasn’t that shit too? I swear, it seems like sooooooo long ago.

Okay, time to begin closing up shop and clearing my mind of worry…


plushcreep March 11, 2021

You're right, of course. You don't think about doing just do it.

Gangleri March 11, 2021

Head down and push forward. All you can do.

Complicated Disaster March 12, 2021

Of course you only need to take on the resources that you think will work for *you* xx

Ginger Snap Complicated Disaster ⋅ March 12, 2021

Yes, but how to sort through all of it?? Too much!

Complicated Disaster Ginger Snap ⋅ March 12, 2021

Haha. Good point! Maybe determine what you need then see if there is a matching resource? Xx

bobbi01 March 12, 2021

I think that scheduler sounds great. Don't be afraid to say you need help.

gemidevi March 12, 2021

Thinking of you! And yes, its always about just doing it. So wishing you well as you just do it!

Marg March 12, 2021

It must seem very overwhelming at times but the scheduler sounds like a great idea! And a happy hour even better :)

Jinn March 15, 2021

Use your resources ! ❤️

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