Feeling a Lot Better Today / Passports / The Girls in Days of My Destiny

Taking it slow. I'm wearing pyjama-type clothes. Hanging about. Slowly doing some of the things on my To Do list that aren't so urgent, and ignoring the more urgent ones. Well really, nothing is EXTREMELY urgent anymore, but shit still needs to get done, lol. But it can all wait.

I had a bath last night after the girls went to bed. I don't have candles, but what I do have in the bathroom is a heat lamp on the wall that gives off an orange glow when lit, which sufficed haha. I closed my eyes and massaged my body and breathed deeply. I think I breathed deeply the whole time I was in the bath. The water was so warm it was almost hot, and I could just feel the tension leaving my muscles and skin.

There are a few things that have just conglomerated lately, too.

1 - I'm going through one of the stages of missing my family

2 - My mother-in-law's behaviour while visiting threw me, which didn't help

3 - I've been insanely busy, all go-go-go for a good two months now

4 - The girls have been fighting and bickering a lot lately which doesn't help either

But things are slowly slowing down. (if that even makes sense). Today over lunch I even managed to read a couple of entries on here. I don't even know when that last happened.

The ex-President and I are making up a "Communications Procedure" together. In particular, she is creating a document that lists all the different meetings we have throughout the year and when/where they are and who is required to attend. As for me, I've been researching proper phone and email communications etiquette. I know a lot of this stuff but I've researched websites just to have some back-up. There has been some nasty bitchiness going on in emails which is completely unnecessary so cracking down on that!

Yesterday, before hitting that man with my car, I also backed into L's ute. It was the stupidest thing. Basically, our backyard is so huge that I can drive forward and around a circle of dirt to get out of my house. But we don't use that circle of dirt because L wants the grass to grow there instead. So we usually reverse to get out. Well L had parked his ute in a different spot than usual and even though I saw it, I wasn't careful enough when reversing, so that I actually drove crookedly and the back right of my car hit the left side of his ute. The ute is mostly fine, it just has two long scratches down the side, which he's not too worried about because it's a bit of a bomb anyway haha. My car isn't that bad but there are some dints in places that mean a whole new side panel is needed, as well as paint peeled off the car, which means rust will ensue. Right now though, things are so busy that we just CAN'T organize insurance and so on. Well we'll call them but won't actually get anything fixed for a while. So anyway when I hit that man, I felt doubly stupid about everything. All the way home I did a count of all the near-misses and actual accidents I've had in cars since we moved here. It ends up averaging to one stupid thing every (roughly) 3-4 months!!!!!!! But I'm feeling heaps better today though. These things do happen, and even though there are many incidents, I actually AM a safe driver!!! And I know it!!!

I've been organizing passports. So basically our passports expired 6-10 months ago but we never knew. Normally you get a reminder to renew your passport a couple of months before it actually expires - but we would've got our reminders sent to a previous address. Which sux. L's is fine to renew - mine isn't, because my passport was in my maiden name. So now I have to apply to a whole new passport and supply evidence of my name change, as well as my birth certificate. Turns out... we have no idea where on earth any of our birth certificates are!!! We only have M's!!! How the hell did that happen?!?!?! So all this will add expenses to our upcoming overseas trip. Mum rang me the other day and I happened to mention the chaos that is passport organizing right now and she said she has the absolute original birth certificate that I need!!!! So she sent it Express Post yesterday. Gotta love ya mother!!!!! So that has made things a LOT easier. In the meantime, I had to get a thousand copies of different documents certified (for other things as well as passport stuff) and the JP signing everything told me that the government may not accept our marriage certificate and that we MAY need to get a REGISTERED copy directly from Births, Deaths & Marriages to send to the passport people. I know that they can send one straight to the passport people at a cost, but I haven't sent my passport application yet because I am awaiting the birth certificate in the mail! So you see it's all a bit of a kerfuffle and it's hard to keep track of when we also need to apply for Little L's passport and birth certificate and all of that!!! Also with L's passport renewal, there was an online component and then he had to It's a lot of LITTLE details that we have to keep track of! Last night I spent almost an hour going through each passport case and actually WRITING DOWN what is needed before we can apply, so we can tick things off and be organized!!! In the end..... I read last night on the government website that it is in fact LEGAL to still travel in my maiden name......... meaning that this whole process could actually be a LOT easier than it has been!!!! But oh well, I'm in the middle of it, I'm not going to change things now!!!!!!

M has been really exited about Easter. Watching her excitement is cute, but the actual "big deal" about it annoys me. I should've known - she attends a Catholic school, so of course it will be made into a huge deal. I don't like it. Particularly because she was asking if she could get an iPod for Easter!!! Like wth, what is she being told?!??! Or is it that she just assumes there will be presents?!? When she asked me this, I got really annoyed and told her we don't do presents at Easter. She looked upset. On the first day of school holidays, she set the table for breakfast before everybody woke up. When we slept in and eventually got up and realised what had happened, we were so happy and surprised (she has done this once before, but this time she actually had to move the dinner table away from the wall, which she did all on her own!!!!). To our further shock and surprise..... we found that she'd actually made little people-cards for L and I, and written a beautiful Happy Easter message on the back of each one, as well as I Love Yous... AND she'd put a tiny piece of chocolate in each of our breakfast bowls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so touched and also felt equally sad for her, because I realised only then just how excited she is about it all and I really wander what she thinks Easter should be.....!!! And here she'd gone and done all these BEAUTIFUL things for us, and not only did I have nothing for her in return, but I'd been grumpy about the whole thing the day before!!!!!! My poor little bub!!!!!! She's got a heart of gold, that girl. She's decided to eat one easter egg everyday until Easter. We only have them because she actually won a raffle at school! Lol. Ah well. I'm letting it go, I mean you're only a child once, after all.

Little L on the other hand has been a real pain to deal with lately. I swear it's been a month to six weeks of DAILY tears, morning and night and throughout the day for whatever reason. She's hit that pain-in-the-everything stage of being THREE. You can't tell her anything, you can't reason with her, you can't win, she can't take no for an answer, etc etc etc. All the fun stuff. She's not fun to be around anymore!!!! But I know it will pass. Seriously though, even when she hurts herself and I tell her to come to me so I can comfort her or kiss it better, she just says, "I don't want to!!!" Like who the hell do you think you are?!?!?!??! Lol.