Days of My Destiny
by colour of water
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Reflections on a Small Town (Part 3)
Part 3 - The Birthday Party We attend my friend’s 40th. It was a dress-up party, with the theme “Dress up as something starting with the letter F.” The birthday girl is Fiona from Shrek. There’s ...
There is no more time to be Miss Lambert
This entry could’ve also been called, “Career Talk.” Or, “The Things I Ignore come with Big Feelings.” This Summer Semester, I will be studying. The subject is How To Teach Special Ed Across Cont...
Next Semester
While I wait for my neighbour to show up so we can go for a walk together, I am reading up on the Four Resources Model. This is what we will be focusing on in one of my uni subjects next semester...
Creatures of Copy
Even though it shouldn’t, it surprises me how much you begin to turn into each other after a while. L and I have been together for 14 years. When I met him, he loved comedy movies, and that was i...
I am a HSP
I can finally put a name to some of my needs that have always gone unheard/unvalidated. I am a Highly Sensitive Person. This means my brain does not filter out certain noises, for example, that o...
Finality
It’s been 6 weeks since That Phonecall that went all awkward and made me see that maybe the friendship was seasonal all this time, after all Last night I went through all the photos of me on fb a...
New Friend / Loss / Lessons
I’m not sure if this entry is coherent or if I’m just rambling. Either way, I’m expressing what’s in my heart lately I am grateful for my establishing friendship with Ryan. I met him 2 years ago,...
Her Patronising Streak
She had this patronising streak about her. Even in the early days, when she’d challenge my assumptions and help me critically evaluate my perceptions, she’d use this different tone of voice. She’...
Let's Talk About Her (LONNNNG entry)
Someone asked me recently why I thought that my friend of 17 years would suddenly go ahead and plan her birthday without me. I feel like there is a short and a long answer. The short answer tell...
An Older Sister's Love
Tonight I wish to acknowledge an older sister’s love. No, not just any older sister’s love, but MY older sister’s love. The way it can sustain you without having to see her face. The way she can ...
This month is/was crazy
Here is a list of things that happened in the physical world in March… I felt a strong disconnection from my kids and chose to find ways to make that work My husband had a few moments of overwhe...
New laptop, yay!
This is my second ever laptop. My first one lasted about 4 years. The last six to twelve months it has been giving me trouble and I have been VERRRRY patient. Lately my patience had been running ...
Sometimes there are words you need to hear
I think he really wants to see me succeed, but fails to see that sometimes success doesn’t lie in being the circus clown with the fake smile on your face while you juggle 8 million balls. Sometim...
*EDIT* When you seek help but you ramble too much
I checked my uni emails this morning and noticed that there are phone appointments available with a Student Relationship Officer if you need help with anything. I decided I’d go ahead and book on...
Things I'm Up To
Decisions I am in the middle of making: - Choosing a high school for my child/ren - Re-visiting schooling options altogether, listing pros and cons of all of them Things I need to get done: - Uni...
Things have definitely improved
Thanks for your comments, suggestions and encouragement on my last entry regarding my parenthood steam running out. I really appreciate it. This situation was starting to really eat away at me an...
Parenting: Running out of steam
I am seriously running out of steam. Here are some things my daughters have been crying about: Can’t find glue but hasn’t even started looking for it Can’t see the envelope stamps in the cupboar...
Survey
Name: colour of water Country: Australia A food you loved as a child that you still love as an adult: Rice! What was your favourite colour as a child? Purple - until my little friend decided to l...
Feeling Better
Feeling a LOT better regarding my latest entries. I just needed to take back ownership of my time and energy. It’s something I always had without apology, but I realise I lost that while we were ...
My Own Reflective Survey
Because the one I just did was a little boring. Below are the things that I want to know. (My answers in the next entry) What was one of your happier moments? What was one of your sadder moments?...
Reflective Survey 2015
What did you do in 2015 that you’ve never done before? Started a business Did you keep your New Years resolutions? and will you make any for next year? I couldn’t remember making any for this...
Question found in the CHILD magazine. The answer given by Nigel Latta (clinical psychologist) is: “On the face of it, this is a pretty simple issue, right? Except, there’s a bit more to this than...
That song is So Me
I’m turning 31 tomorrow. I dropped the girls off at kindy and school today, then I came home and swept and mopped the floors. A friend of mine is coming to see me and I at least want the floors t...
Serenity
7pm, I just went for a walk with the dog. Cool night air blowing on my face, the clouds as menacing as they are dark. Raindrops gently falling on my skin, two drops in fact, falling on my eyelids...
Big Week
It was a very big week for me, emotionally and mentally. I’ve been feeling lost. Yep. It’s the 3 month mark since we moved back. I had this same thing at the three month mark after moving away. E...
Book Description
My drive has always been, “Happiness is my Destiny.”
However, over the years I have realised that really, there is happiness to be embraced every single day of my life. Of course, the contents of my days aren’t ONLY happiness - my destiny is here, right now, this minute, this breath.
So breathe with me.
So:
L is my husband. He is awesome, there is no other word to describe him. Oh yeah there is, thoughtful, funny, helpful, funny, amazing in bed, funny. And.... FUNNY!
M is my daughter, she is 5. Headstrong, loving, individual. Beautiful. Learning how she relates to the world and learning all about Big Girl friendships since starting school. Her journey has truly begun now and she is finding her way. She’ll be a little woman before I know it. (this scares me)
L is my other daughter, she is ‘almost 3’ (she’ll tell you everyday). She is funny, crazy, cute. Definitely cute. Innocent, sensitive, in tune with nature, aware of her surroundings, beautiful.
I’m not sure that I write about anyone else all that regularly, but you’ll figure out who they are.
Welcome :)