Happy Sunday. Thought I’d give you an update while I have the Emmy’s playing in the background, my dog at the foot of my bed, and a bubbly water to sip while I do.
General: I’m generally feeling okay lately. I have something to look forward to (a road trip!), I have some thoughts on moving even though I haven’t taken solid steps to physically get out of here yet, I have been able to get out and see friends here and there…
Downtown Living: Things are starting to get better. The hustle and bustle is just barely beginning to show some signs of emerging again, and even though I’m still very nervous to walk around my neighborhood, I did take the dog over to the park on my block yesterday without too much fear. The only gross thing was the guy at the train station on my corner who was pulling his pants down and clawing at something from his stomach down to his crotch. But tonight as I was driving home from another neighborhood (looking at a cottage) and things felt pretty good. I mean, it didn’t feel as bleak as it has for the last several months. There wasn’t as much sadness lingering in the air. I didn’t feel blackness in my heart. That’s progress.
Mental State: Good-ish. I don’t know, man. I think this glorious weather has something to do with it. But then again, it also seems that every time the collective WE starts to feel like things are getting better, something like the death of RBG happens and the collective WE falls back into mourning. What a year this is. What a year for all of us. We ALL need therapy.
Love Life: Back to bleak. I’m blue in this department, but what’s new? I got a text from Mr. P (prostate dude) and forgot to text back. CD (cute dad) texts are spotty after our date last weekend. Meh. I actually invited him to do something in the future but he was noncommittal, so I know not to rely on him.
Physical: Haven’t been getting my daily sweat every single day. I know that this is suuuuper important to my mental state, so this is 100% something I can control. I know what to do.
Parents/Family: Mom and Dad doing well - especially since they adopted George. He seems to be doing really, really well - which makes Mom and Dad do well. He has them moving around. I couldn’t ask for more. My bro is teaching and he thinks that the kids will all be back at 100% soon. He’s not happy about it, so is still living separately from my SIL and my niece. SIL is not doing well. She’s super depressed. Niece is still cute and sweet but clearly needs to hang with other kids. I feel for her. I feel for my SIL. But everyone is surviving okay.
Work: So, so busy. I am annoyed 99% of the time. Must chill out and methodically make my move.
I better go. Hope you all had a splendid weekend - as splendid as it could possibly be considering everything…